The pull into the abyss of your mind through altered states of consciousness. That pull can feel like your being enticed gently. It can feel like someone yelling for you to take the leap. It can feel all consuming. Like enlightenment is just one trip away. Happiness is right around the corner! Right? Well... that's the pull.
How about the push? Feeling like it will be all to much. I am not ready, I have uttered to myself at times. Not right now. Fear? Not so much that than something that just says stay away. Unwelcomed. Sound familiar to anyone? Shut out? Treated harshly? Maybe even some boredom? So... that is the push.
I cannot encompass what the pull and push is for me through my life with any words. It is something that is very deep. A feeling that is indescribable as many psychedelic journeys I have had. I can't place my finger on it.
I feel like it is about integration. New lessons will not be presented until old lessons are learned. I have quite a bit of psychedelic experience and have felt this pull and push the entire time. It is not disconcerting to me at all. I understand it in my own way. I get it.
I would be interested in hearing about the pull and push psychedelics has in your life. Please share with me what you can make of it. What does it means to you? Do you go balls to the wall with the pull? Are you on break from psychedelics from the push?
This topic interests me. I would really like to hear what you all think?
"In the universe there is an immeasurable, indescribable force which shamans call intent, and absolutely everything that exists in the entire cosmos is attached to intent by a connecting link." ~Carlos Castaneda