21-02-16 – 30mg xtal and goo- loaded gvg on ceramic flavor disc approxly vaped 20/30mg in 2 inhallations.

Vibrations, swirling waves of intricate patterns wash over me as I... dissolve.
Turning window leaf dimensions- every time the leaf turns a new window into another realm appears. As I see this, an intelligence that is showing me informs me of its secrecy. The ever changing nature of the image allows it to escape the control of the oppressive authority. The substance which allows you to experience these visions is the greatest tool we ( the rebels)have to fight the authority. Wow…Ok

Physical- very hard time remembering such fleeting visions.
All sense of self dissolves as one becomes an ever changing collage of visions and patterns. In the beginning I struggle to maintain my sense of self until the strange sensation of becoming other and actually merging with the visions wins.
Its quite a terrifying experience actually, no longer being yourself, human or any one thing is disorientating. Before I can enjoy the experience I begin to notice my body coming back on line. Slowly I remember my arms, chest and legs, before realizing a light above me that slowly fades. I see faces looking at me, weird fish like alien faces from behind the knitted rug.

General repeating sensations;
First an intense chill overcomes the body
Like the body shutting off or dying
Then a pressure in the brain and like an intense zing vibration that is know as the carrier wave which transports you away from the body into the visual realm.
I become aware of the Sensation of my Brain becoming quite hot. Like hot syrup in my frontal cortex. Then a kind of electric stinging.

After effects
Tears,
Fatigued but empty ( generally lighter)
Initial lapse of memory of experience altogether ( I question if anything even happened) until an hour or so later I remember it like a dream.
Brain feels a little wired and the electric stinging persists for some time.
( I believe this is due to serotonin as I am taking 30mg duloxetine snri)
Very vivid dreams for couple of nights after experience.

Summary: i have glimpsed the terrible beauty and power of this substance.
I will definitely be treading with care and giving myself time between journeys to integrate the flood of experiences and to slowly adjust to the insane otherness one undergoes.
I think it has helped me to have basic knowledge of psychology ( Jungian- persona, shadow, anima, self, archetypes etc ), mythology ( joseph Campbell) mysticism ( alan watts ), meditation, eastern concepts about the nature of reality and researching fellow hitchikers experiences on nexus…. Just to help come to terms with the weirdness. All is illusion seems to be a fitting statement although I am certain I know very little about anything whatsoever

Thanks for sharing your report.

Take all the time you need to integrate your experience, baby steps if you will. It's definitely powerful medicine.

Safe and happy journeys friend


Peace

I’ve only had two experiences but in both this point has been the start of things getting serious, beyond that form, colour, emotions and senses have no divisions between them anymore. I feel like we experience the world in third person somewhat ie. we are about to think about what we are experiencing. DMT seems to break this down and we actually ‘become’ the experience and for me that is what is so scary about it; there is no telling myself this is just a drug so my mind tries to divorce itself from what is happening.

My last experience I hit a point where I was sure I would fragment into pieces never to come back together and a moment of panic before I somehow I was pulled back from going deeper.