Hello nexus, Sphorange here!
A year overdue with this, I came straight out of the gate on a massive Terence McKenna bender and happened to join the forum on the first attempt just over a year ago, hardly humble beginnings. Thinking to myself,: Well, obviously these cats will be excited to hear from my perspective and my opinion regarding everything.

Lets just say that humility is hard lesson for the stubborn. And healing is a thing for a lifetime of work, not just a sweet three puffs on a pipe towards oblivion.
In a little over a year, I went from being an arrogant little pestilent know-it-all into a slightly less arrogant, less pestilent, more open to the collective totality of personalities that inhibit the nexus and most importantly; their fantastic new ideas that both challenge and support mine in a synergy of honesty and love.

I am humbled by this place.
I've learnt how to learn again.

And subsequently, I have been rewarded with the gift of spice (just need to stop being lazy and actually do the extraction).
And friends too.
Friends, strangers who at the drop of a hat offer earnest advice in my most troubled times. I am eternally thankful. And owe a debt to this place to pass on the favour.

My collection of plants has grown into a life-long obsession. The acacias are starting to communicate with me, sharing their secrets.

My truest self is beginning to drop its guard and become present in my day-to-day experience, I attribute this to the impeccable nature of the members of this forum.
I have mastery over my addictions, their claws are gentle scratchings and ticklings, rather that incapacitating me with deep wounds through my spine and head. For this, I am grateful.

I know this is late for an introduction, but truthfully; I feel like a newbie everytime I log on. Fake it till you make it you know?

But now, it's time to get down to the nitty gritty chemistry so I might be a little distant for a while, outside of annoying questions regarding naphtha and such.

I have a court date with the universe, and I know it will be a trying experience; The truest mirror of all.
See you on the other side.
Much love.

This is beautiful man, it truly is.

If it helps, I think we are all arrogant at times whether it is a dominant trait or not, it exists in all of us to some extent. The difference is you are open to change, open to new ideas even when it means looking at yourself to determine what needs to be different. Sometimes nothing should change while other times call for a complete overhaul of the "self." Being able to see this and make headway is an admirable thing. It sounds as though you are accomplishing what you want, and that is beautiful in and of itself.

I remember reading about some of your troubling times as of late and I know it struck a chord with me. I hope that everything is still going okay with you and your significant other and that whole situation.

Also, I really enjoy the poetic/enigmatic writings you've posted...it has inspired me to open my dusty lyric notebook to jot some things down. I write music but I find writing lyrics to be the most elusive. Your cryptic and inspiring words have moved me. I just thought you should know.

But anyway, since this is technically an introduction, Welcome to the Nexus!

Seriously though, I've enjoyed getting to know you through your posts over the past few months and I look forward to your future posts! Have a good one!

-The Grateful One-

It's never to late for a big warm hug

Get to it!