As I have been wanting to try DMT for several years now, and have never run into anyone who has had any experience with this substance, I finally decided to try this adventure on my own.

I would like to start with my first 7 times vaporizing freebase within 4 days.

Two months prior to this experiment I had joined an aya ceremony in Peru. It was a very mild experience although I had taken all 3 servings. There were no visions involved, but I felt the most euphoric I've ever felt for 3-4 hours. It was probably the happiest time in my life, and and all I could do is smile, my cheeks started hurting and my whole body was shacking out of joy. Totally not what I had ever expected. Even days after that I felt a positive change in my attitude.


(I've never read any trip reports, because I believe the less you know, the less you expect, and without any expectations there is very little room for disappointment. I have learned this from traveling around the world. The less I new about a place I visited, the better the experience usually was)

Day 1

After reading a lot about set and setting and first time suggestions for smoking I decided to start with
25mg although I had planned to start with more, and total silence. It was a mistake to go without music as I really enjoyed the music at the ceremony in Peru, or it was the low dosage. The onset hit me like a wall. My body started feeling super heavy, I heard a cracking sound and white geometric patterns started flying at me. A somewhat black n white trip... It was rather uncomfortable but interesting. The whole experience was pretty short, I did not look at the clock but probably less than two minutes till I opened my eyes again and felt somewhat normal.

So, I took a 15 min. Break, chose some music(Pink Floyed, The Division Bell) and loaded the GVG with 32mg.
As soon as I exhaled it hit me just as suddenly as the first time. I guess the initial feeling is like skydiving, like holy shit, now I am going and have to go through till I land.

This time with the music playing, no more colorless squares. I guess I was surrounded by a colorful, psychedelic spiraling tunnel. I was not aware of my body anymore, lost total control over it. I could have not opened my eyes if I wanted to, not that I wanted to, as I said, there was no awareness of my body at all. Something that I did not anticipate or expect, as you can imagine I was quite surprised when I "returned" to my room and was quite happy I followed the suggestion of laying in bed under a blanket. And that's the reason why I stated in my introduction essay that I am glad I didn't succeed with my experiments 3 years ago. With my eyes open, sitting on the couch, I probably would not have had a pleasant experience.

During the first seconds of the trip, A strange though was going through my mind, but I could not grasp what it was. It was something about me, but I really don't know. It just felt like the though was returning and I kept loosing it, very strange. This whole psychedelic part of the experience stopped abruptly when they music stopped and I regained awareness of my body again. I got a euphoric rush and a smile came to my face, and I was still laying in bed for another few minutes or so till I could get up. Next time I will make sure my music device is charged.


Day 2

40mg this time.... Very cloudy memory .... Didn't seem like long, but my wife said I was in the room for 20 min. A similar though like the first went through my mind up to the moment when I ended up in an endless open colorful geometric space. Same euphoric feeling once I was back in my room.

Within 30 minutes I got ready for round two with 42mg .... While the first geometric images started forming, again the same though pattern. Something about me... Still couldn't get a clear idea of what it was. Then gone to hyperspace, a beautiful endless space, this time no edges and corners, somehow spiraling and flowing. The only thought I can remember must have been seconds before I starting coming down. Like wholly shit I have been here forever I need to go back to wife and baby.... Then it felt like I started screening and wrestling and the feeling that they might be concerned about me, or holding me down.... But I was alone in the room, so no one was there and my wife said she didn't hear me scream. When I totally regained consciousness and became aware of my mortal remains, I felt very euphoric and happy, more so than the times before. And I laid there for a few more minutes. Enjoying the sound of music.

Day 3

Again 40mg
This time I remember the most, first, the same kinda though in my head, I remember it seems like I was somewhere struggling to get in or out, be part of it or not, but I am not sure. and then I ended up in a rectangle space, psychedelic patterns mainly green and yellow, with some presents in the space with me. It seemed like I was in there, or part of it, bouncing from wall to wall.
Again the total disassociation with my body, and euphoric smile when I woke up.
I did not get a chance to go for round two that day.

Day 4

The next day I keep getting goosebumps, all morning I was thinking about the experience, thinking about the sound of the music, and I got goosebumps. A lot of goosebumps. At some point they are so strong my whole head felt almost like charged with static. Never in my life have I had so many goosebumps and I could not stop thinking about my experience and was patiently waiting for the right moments to vaporize again.
Finally the time of day came

44mg this time... Although I did not experience anything negative the days before, just that strange reoccurring though pattern in my head, the preflight anxiety seems to get worse every time.
This time, was very similar to the day before, just even more intense and clearer memories of the first seconds and the forming of the geometric patterns. Then again total disassociation from my body and entering the rectangular shaped hyperspace.

Within 15 min. I decided to give it another try. 47mg.This time, before I exhaled I started feeling the effects as my body was emerging in softness and geometrical patterns started forming while I was still aware of who and where I was. I asked myself if I didn't break through since I was still being aware of myself and feeling my body. When I exhaled , the same thought pattern that I experienced before came back, and this time I was very obviously questioning my whole existence, am I still alive or dead, in my body or not, detached, male or female, by the time the though pattern stopped, in that moment the square rectangle space dissolved and whatever disconnected from my body beamed into beautiful fantasiworld, full of smooth colorful curves, full of energy and love. I was not in it, it's more like I was a part of it. But I am not really sure. This time I felt the most euphoric when I regained consciousness almost with tears in my eyes I was feeling so much love ....
Although I never head a bad trip or any negative thoughts, and woke up quite euphoric and happy, my respect to this substance grew every time and the pre-flight anxiety got stronger . Therefore I did not vap any the following day. Then the next day I had to go on a two week trip. So patience is needed before I can go for round 8. I am very much looking forward to this.

2 weeks later, 3 more tries between 45 and 50. No breakthrough as I saw the spice melting down in the neck of the gvg. Not sure why, since nothing had changed since the first 7 times.
Then I purchased a chore boy and later the liquid pad.

Following that, twice I ended up in a void, all memories just of black empty nothingness .... Not sure if I heard music. I guess it must have been a reflection of my mind since I felt pretty empty those days.

After that I had 3 or 4 really nice breakthroughs to hyperspace, again full of love and energy, where nothing mattered and I was in total peace with myself.

The last breakthrough, 50mg within 10 minutes of regaining consciousness from a previous breakthrough, I totally melted and became one with the universe. The most comfortable, pleasant and rewarding feeling.

After initially vaporizing twice a day four days a week, the last couple weeks I only hit it once a week, twice a day.

All in all, I seem to feel some positive changes in my life. I am becoming more patient, it's becoming easier for me to let go and not let little things get in the way of my happiness. I also seem to be sleeping better.
Although in general I have been smoking less weed since I started working with DMT, after the second gvg for the day I usually want to smoke right away as I feel kinda empty and don't know what to do with myself for another 30 minutes or so after coming back to earth.

Hey There Hawaiigold. I'm in a similar place as you! I wanted to try DMT for a long time, years perhaps. Just started 3 week ago, been experimenting avidly.
As for your summation of experiences- great work. I have a few comments.



Interesting. I see, it reminds me of choosing not to read the back of a DVD in case it's so poorly written and gives away stuff that you'd have rather figured out yourself. But over time I've found that it's worth it to "read the reviews" for substances. Even find the excitement and anticipation building by reading reports!



What? cool. I tried music during my first breakthrough, it quickly lost all pleasurable effects despite being a song I normally loved. Since then all my trips have contained NO music. All I want is a box fan going!
What kind of music? I think very relaxed ambient music that's chill and non-agitating could work for me at some point down the road.



YES brilliant. I can relate. Smoking on the couch is too intense. I love to smoke laying flat on my stomach on my bed, definitely with a blanket and a heater in the room. SO comfortable and lovely when you return to earth, "kissing the ground" in awe as you say below:

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Yes. Getting up the courage to take another journey keeps getting harder and harder for me, too. I have had one very very bad experience as well, which only adds to the rapid heart rate elevation and pre-flight anxiety for me! But I have come to respect DMT so much, just like you. I just cannot go into it lightly or in a bad mental space.



If you ever have a negative experience, hopefully you'll learn a deep lesson from it.. but I wouldn't wish that kind of pain on anyone except as the worst possible punishment for the most heinous crimes. DMT certainly has a self-regulating quality that can prevent abuse.



YES me too, friend. Patience increased, especially with crazy life things out of my control... the intense journeys of DMT have forced me to "go with the flow" and provided great practice letting go of my large-scale worries and extrapolations about my life that cause daily strains.

Another interesting side effect- I am loosening up as a person. I was brought up rigidly religious and struggle to this day with rigid thinking and harsh inner mental skirmishes all the time and tons of false personal guilt. But each time I smoke DMT I feel more and more released, since the very REAL reality of DMT washes over me and becomes more real to me each time. As a result of this liberation, I am choosing to release false guilt over small decisions I make that might offend other people, especially strangers (does it REALLY matter if I am seen throwing an apple core out my car window?? ). Even among my close friends I am starting to notice that my job is not to make myself fit into THEIR preferred version of ME. I dunno, it's hard to explain because it's coming across as selfish and egotistical, but it's not! I may have to write a post on it later. It really is positive, helping me feel far less shameful and guilty if someone's feelings get accidentally hurt as a result of me sticking to my guns and honestly expressing my true self on an issue, rather than caving in on myself and feeling guilt because they get mad unreasonably and rudely or became emotional. They are entirely responsible for their emotional reactions, as am I for mine!!

I digress~

Wonderful job with these reports. I have found that the Nexus is my absolute favorite place to hang out and share my life-altering, profound DMT experiences! Keep it up and see you around

Hi DMT_Tom, thank you very much for reading my report and your comments.

About the music, I am not sure if I am qualified to say that it was a mistake to journey without music as it was my very first time and I have not dared since then to try full silence again....
Except for one trip I have always listened to Pink Floyed, The Divison Bell. And the sound just makes an incredible experience. Once I switched to Bluetech ( after searching this forum for recommendations I came across Sphongle and Entheogenic and from there ended up with Bluetech) but I remember it as being a little annoying or disturbing and it wasn't one of my better trips. Not sure if that was because of my choice of music, or just a reflection of my state of mind.

I recently started reading some other experience reports, and although (I guess it needless to say) my experiences were by far the most intense experiences I have ever had in my life, both physical and psychological, I have yet experiences what some people describe .....

As about a negative experience, I recently had two in a row. That's why I finally finished my trip report, because I wanted to start a separate experience report about those, not not start my first experience report with a bad one .....
But they were not as any of the bad trip reports that I have read, nothing like seeing dark or evil entities, just like a distortion of dimension if that would be appropriate wording... Anyways, I will explain more in detail when I am ready to post.