So, just a few quick notes after last night's experience. I've tried various psychedelics, but it's been decades. I'd read so much about Aya, various entheogens, and DMT that I really wanted to try it. Thanks to the people on reddit, and you folks here, I was able to make my own. That's a whole 'nother tale, which I won't go into here. Let us simply say I had a plentiful supply, a positive frame of mind and time to explore....
My reading had pointed me to a dab rig as a good way to do the FB. I have a spare nail, so I was ready to go. Tried to meditate, but I was too curious about the experience. I had stated my intentions previously, so I jumped in. My dig. scale says it will measure 1/100ths of a gram, but was strangely silent when I dumped on a sizable pile. That can't be right, I thought, oh shit..so, I did an amount equal to a good sized dab, held it...waited.....nothing. 2nd try, jumbo sized dab, and I felt it...sense of pressure building and some kind of gray fractals. Tried that a couple more times, got a bit further, but I couldn't help noticing the taste......urrrggghh. I had gotten some herbs to make changa, but it wasn't nearly ready. So, I just chopped some up, added a few chunks of FB, and loaded a stem in my log vape. The hit was sweet, mild...tasty even, and then whoosh! Oh, yeah, THIS is what I was waiting for! Bright, purple-y fractals and colors, like looking up into the ceiling of a cathedral, and the feeling of so much gratitude....wow. My centers opening, and just floating. Got 3 hits off that stem, and loaded another. Each hit a little different but similar. Toward the end it got much more intense....the fractals folding inward on themselves, changing, morphing, the sense that more, more, unendingly more was just around the corner. I felt a little overwhelmed. I have had some difficult journeys in the past, and I was afraid I would be thrust into that, but no. It was gentle, and I was able to keep my distance, with the understanding that there was territory that needed to be explored at another time. I did get the distinct feeling that I was done for now, and needed to stop, and integrate before coming back. I had been really high, on and off, for a couple hours! The afterglow lasted a couple more. I thought about having some weed, but I felt it was important to listen, you know, pay attention to this experience only. Today I still feel different, centers more open, aware of my "movie" and how it negatively impacts my life, but how it's just a bad habit.
Coupla thoughts. Vaping works. I probably didn't breakthrough, but I got what I needed and I can go further with ease, I suspect. And the TASTE! Oh, yum....so much better than FB. I have so little experience, I can't compare different states, and more experienced travelers have said "vaping doesn't work" or something to that effect. I dunno, maybe they never tried a really good vape, but this one sure got me high : ) With this stem just for changa, I don't think it will leave a smell on the vape itself. I used a crude mix, mostly aya leaf, some mullein leaf, passion flower, and peppermint. I want to make enhanced leaf, with even more MAOI, but that will come later. For now, thanks everyone!