I'm very new to the DMT scene. I've experienced a few LSD and 2c-x trips. Having thought I 'broke through' on 600 mikes of L a month ago, I felt prepared for the next level.

Yesterday morning I had microdosed 20ug LSD purely for mood enhancement and to get some work done. It was a beautiful day and I was in completely good spirits. 10hrs later I was still feeling overstimulated so I took 2mg xanax to unwind. I fell asleep while reading and awoke around 10pm. I felt the desire to dig into my batch of freebase, having only had half experiences the week prior.

From 10pm-4am I administered small doses with each trip increasing in length and intensity. I was feeling pure bliss and amazement after each and every one.

My last trip, I had eyeballed the largest dose yet - I don't have a mg scale but it looked in the region of 70-80mg. Possibly more. This time I lay still in my bed, comfortable, in complete darkness and no sound.

First pull. It was thick. I took the longest drag ever, and managed to hold it for a long time. By the time I exhaled, I was almost completely taken. I managed a second. And a third (how I do not know). What then happened is completely beyond me. Reality itself dissolved. That's how best I can describe it. This time I did not have eyes. A self, anything. There were no entities, or cities full of delight and wonder, or fractals. It was just a singular experience of... nothing. As I was coming back to it, I had to sit up and touch and say the names of everything in my room that I associate with being real. A fan. My desk. A light switch. I thought I had completely lost my sense of reality for 5-10 minutes after the experience and it completely shook me to my core.

Has anyone else had these experiences? Was it a combination of the AVB and Xanax (although it should have worn off by then) that prevented me from 'breaking through'? I think what I experienced was a breakthrough because I cannot even process what happened into thought let alone language. All I can say that it has left me with a hard belief that death of the physical being is not the end - and this is coming from somebody who has never experienced spirituality or religion their whole life.