Okay, so tonight was the first time I tried dmt. I've had experience with other hallucinogens in the past such as lsd, al-lad, shrooms, 4aco-dmt, 25i(once)...and also had experience with dissasociative drugs such as mxe & 3meopcp. Anyways, it's been about 2 years since any of those experiences. So I got very intrigued by the dmt molecule. I did a massive amount of research & then decided to extract some from MHRB. So, after extraction I ended up with a golden sparkly crystal..they formed white originally in the glass dish but as they dried out I suppose they oxidized? (P.s if someone could give me suggestions on how to go about cleaning/recrystalizing I would appreciate it.) there's just too many ways out there I don't know the most efficient/convenient way to do so. Ok so anyways, I load 37mg in an oil burner & take a toke but I don't feel like I got much (this thing is tricky, considering I've never used one) so I'm rolling & lighting & take another toke..I try to hold it in, and physically could have, but I got a little nervous & released soon..then i thought to myself ughhh what are you doing..you've planned for this, you've prepared yourself, you're ready..then I took another hit, but there wasn't much vapor in the glass at this point & it seemed odd kind of like I was in a dissociative state where holding the glass felt so odd by now..so I set it down & my body felt lethargic. Everything in my room became crisp, as if everything was perfect. Once again this reminded me of a dissociative state..like some of my mxe trips..
Then I closed my eyes & automatically thought "you've done this a million times before" I had this sensation as if I've lived/or will live at some point this same me except different circumstances..kind of like the butterfly effect if you've seen that movie. I then I felt like I was a part of something that lasted forever & was only going to become more perfect. I felt like all evil will be dimenished one day & we will have a whole entire universal life cycle repeated except everything perfect this time around. Anyways, then I felt as if I were being scanned by something..it felt good at the time..it was a vibration sensation kind of like electricity or energy like I was being tickled all over by a vibrational energy & it seemed to be in the form of geometric patterns & they were constantly flowing through me & it felt as if something inside my soul was being rearranged. It's like they were searching me to see any forms of negative energy in my life & was rebalancing me so to speak.
Then I seemed to have a vision of my future here in this current existence..and it seemed so perfect & it was like I just "knew" that this was going to end up happening..and I thought of my ex lover whom I deeply care for & I felt saddened for him it's like I could see how low and dark his energy was so as I was thinking about this I asked "can I give him some of my energy" and then something told me to meditate on sending him love and healing & as I did I breathed in really deeply and then exhaled very deeply. It seemed like the natural thing to do and as I exhaled I literally felt like I was releasing some of my energy..then I kind of came back around and I felt very positive and good. I definitely didn't break through, but it was nice to get my toes wet. I didn't even see a lot of patterns other than the shapes that were examining me..could this be due to the oxide effecting the molecule? It was still a beautiful experience. I'm about confused about visioning my future because it literally seemed perfect & I don't know if I'm just "imagining" this stuff or if it was a literal message... Anyways, I plan on purifying what I have & investing in a Vapor genie & trying the journey again because I would like to breakthrough. Thanks for taking the time to read my experience.