Hey guys, been having some amazing things happen with my Palohuasca blend-

https://www.dmt-nexus.me...aspx?g=posts&t=63581

and this track -

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KriELJu3DLw

and I wanted to share and see if anyone else gets this.

I'll give you a rough synopsis of what usually happens although sometimes there is a slight variation to it. This has happened the the first trip of the night the last 5 times I've done it.

I have found that setting an intention before doing it and then laying down flat with my arms out and body open let's me really dissolve into the trip. When I sit up I've realised that being contracted in the upright position affects my ability to let go.

Also I've been meditating very regularly, at least once a day and apart from changing my life in such a positive way I find I can surrender quite easily now without much resistance whereas when I didn't meditate daily I couldn't let go.

I load 1g of that blend into my Plenty Vaporizer and share between 5 people. I take 2 huge hits and lay back.

It starts out very alien, like I'm being examined by something. Almost like a craft of some kind hovering above me with lots of things that look like eyes. It's talking to me, distracting me while it goes to work on my body. Moving things around, changing things, fixing things. The music really seems to add something at this point, I can hear electricity running through me as it's working on me.

Then it's like I'm chasing something. It's teasing me almost in a sexual way as I'm chasing. I don't know what I'm chasing but it's like I want something I can grab and define as 'IT'. Like an object I can put my finger on and say this is what "DMT" is.

But I can never catch it. It's like I'm chasing a point of some kind and that point is moving at 1000 miles an hour and it's spitting out infinity in it's wake. Things I cannot even begin to describe. It's like metaphorically I'm trying to define it as an object but it is not an object.

It's actually very much like trying to find the Self using the mind when the mind can only work with objects. The mind cannot find the Self as an object because it has no objective qualities. Those of you who have an understanding of non-duality will know what I'm talking about.

It's laughing at me and teasing me. It knows what I'm trying to do and it knows I'll never be able to do it. It's saying to me,

"You want it? come on, come on, come on........"
"I know you want it....more....come on......come on!!"

Pressure begins to build.....

It taunts me some more

"YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT IS........I KNOW YOU DO"
"COME ON..... COME ON... YOU'RE NEARLY THERE...... JUST A BIT MORE...... COME ON"

The pressure is building to a crescendo, to absolute bursting point and then it says,

"COME ON....COME ON......COME ON......NOW......... GO FOR IT!!!!!!!!"

Then immediately I open my eyes, I know exactly what I have to do. I start to feel a rumble in my pelvis, deep and raw. It has a very primal feel to it. All I have to do is give it a little attention and emotion and then the vibrations start.

Violent, uncontrollable vibrations going through my whole body but starting in my pelvis. Shaking, vibrating, I lose control of what's happening and it's like I'm not in my body anymore. I'm channelling the raw power of it. It's flowing through me. These vibrations are so intense I could not fake them. If you've ever seen someone or an animal having a trauma release it's exactly like that. In fact I'm almost certain this is what's happening.

It's like a gazelle that's been chased by a lion and got away is now shaking off it's trauma. It feels so good, so healing and healthy. Raw power and energy running through my whole my body. At this point I'm so out of my body that it feels like I'm just a screen that a movie is playing on and the movie is vibrating but the screen doesn't move. I know what's happening but I can't actually feel a body shaking, just vibrations.

Then I start to come back into my body a bit and my legs start to really shake. Bending and straightening rapidly, kicking and flopping.

Then I use my hands to brush myself down to release some of the energy and do some rapid deep breathing.

Then it starts to slow down and eventually it stops and I'm completely open and vulnerable. Totally peaceful, relaxed. It's orgasmic. All stress has left my body and I'm full of peace and joy. I lay there in bliss.

Since I started having these releases I've noticed huge changes in my life. Letting go of old traumas, letting go of stress, letting go of anxiety. It's my weekly reset button. It's like I've learned how to tap in to the wonderful healing power of the medicine.

I've smoked some with someone who helps people with PTSD. He has learned how to trigger these kinds of releases in people through body work. He has the same thing happen to him when he vapes it. The first time it happened I was with him and I don't know if it was just his presence or what but now i can make it happen every time,

Truly magical and wonderful. It really is medicine. I'm so thankful I found it. Can anyone relate to this?

Thats amazing and wonderful that this experience happens for you. I would like this exact sort of healing process to occur for me. I have years of trauma, inner guilt, anxiety, depression that weighs me down daily. Anti depressants only cover it up. I want to feel like I felt when I was a child. Care free, in the moment, blissful, emotionally connected.

It sounds like you're peeling the trauma onion layers piece by piece. I'm really glad to hear that its working on you in this way because it gives me hope that it will do the same for me. Unfortunately, my current status in life doesn't allow me to practice this, but eventually I will get to a place in my life where I can use this medicine for such purposes.

I will have to rely on meditation, exercise, and healthy lifestyle choices right now, but it seems like its not enough to keep the fear, panic, and horrible anxiety that haunts me away. Great to hear stories like this. Thank you.