Ok so first post here. I just wanted to speak mainly about my second trip, I'm pretty sure I know what
Last night I took DMT for the first time. My first trip was amazing. I felt like I was pulled from my body and shown this amazing world. As I was being pulled I felt what felt like hands touching me, trying to reassure me that everything will be fine - almost like a mother putting her hand on you to reassure you. Then I calmed down and just started to drink it in. I'm not going to lie, I was in complete astonishment for long time before I realised I was there for a purpose (lol) so I started to focus and still my thoughts and felt like I was being told some home truths, although I wasn't "hearing" them, it was more like I felt/knew/understood it. But shortly afterwards I was being taken back and came back round. Apparently I had been smiling and laughing the entire time.
Now I have quite a bit of experience with psychedelics so I'm pretty sure I know what happened durning my second (and final trip of the evening) but as DMT is new to me I kinda want to make sure it didn't have any further meaning/lesson for me to grasp.
As I took my hit and was just about to slide into hyperspace again one of the girls we was with sat up and said she needed to go and lie down in her room, took her phone (which was playing the music) and naturally I felt concerned/worried for her wellbeing as we had been taking DMT lol. This time as I was "rising" I felt an enormous tug towards my body/earth - I presume this was some kind of conflict as obviously I was ascending to a different plane whilst having a large sense of concern on earth because this trip was very different from the last one. I was really scared and worried throughout, it felt like everyone there was trying to calm me down. Determined not to let it get the better of me, I focused on the entities trying to calm me down and tried to direct my thoughts back to the reason I was there - for answers. At this point a very large entity appeared and, again, I felt scared whilst everyone was trying to calm me down but more so that before - I was a bit panicky. The entities themselves weren't evil or scary, I just felt scared and in the awe of everything I think I became scared of them because I was confused. Then there was a sense of, that's enough for tonight and I was returned, but I was still had very intense visual effects for about 5 minutes.
So after sleeping on it and using my previous psychedelic experiences, I would assume that the girl leaving just as I was going into my trip set me off on the wrong foot because I was worried about her and worried about something on earth, so I took that worry with me and then things kinda spiralled out of control because I focusing on that. The dudes upstairs were trying to calm me down, but then decided that wasn't going to happen so told me to lay off it tonight now and we'll see you soon.
What do you guys think? Have I hit the nail on the head or do you think there's some kind of hidden meaning that I need to focus on?