I finally got around to doing some sublingual (20mg) rue extract and 34ish mg of vaped spice.
The come up was still very fast and disorienting, and the come down very gradual. Peaked at like 3 minutes in, slowly drifted down after 30 minutes. I was ... augmented ... "afterglowing?" for 1 full hour after ward.

In this strange post trip head space, I wrote the following, which is my attempt at poetically describing the experience. I felt guided by my higher self to write it this way, so here it is.
I'll write up my interpretation in comments if there is any interest.

Namaste.

- FF

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Then the whole universe comes
Condensed down to a pinpoint
The universe
The whole universe
The whole universe comes
The whole universe cums into your face
A cosmic shock


Conner McGreggor wears an African mask, long and tribal
Standing above me, dancing above me
Beckoning me to rise

He had KO'd me and I was coming to
His voice distinct, Irish, brash

"What did you expect?
Did you think this through? Do you think anything through?
How blind/blithely you make decisions about your life
It's not even your life
It's god's life
It's your spouse's life
It's your employers life
Your children's life
You don't own it

You wanted a vision?
Why did you rush into this fight?
You knew you'd lose,
(but you were okay with that)"

He must have said M-F'er every seventh word
His cockiness belied the fact
His blow was educational
Not confrontational

...

For a moment, you were consumed
I was consumed
And no other moment existed
The hammer of reality
Strikes hardest, when focused

Your life exposed, naked
For the first time
The only time
Now

This life that you live
Each detail
A thousand pounds
You carry them
Each step, unawares
Each step a forgetting
will you see them?

Now that you see them
What step will you take

A quiet voice now speaks
Telling me about the deep visions I seek
When you can handle yourself
Given the right setting
They will come

If you desire deep visuals
(Like an Alex Gray painting)
Work backwards
Start with what you want
Work backwards
Each step is clear
Don't rush

The come down is longer
I feel the rue, it personality
(We've met before)

I want to laugh, fully belly
Unrestrained
But cannot
Family asleep
To wake them, is selfish


Want to release myself, but where?
Where can I fully be myself?
When I am alone?
Or do I need the courage to be myself
While vulnerable
And not alone?