After trying a few threshold doses I decided to try a little bit of a bigger dose. The first hit of thick white smoke almost instantly made the room seem very hyper real, sort of like time had slowed and everything was being observed with extreme detail. Everything felt extremely familiar and peaceful, every sound faded into the background. The walls started breathing as I took a second toke. I recognised this 'place' I was in, it felt like I had known it for a long time. I just sat on my bed looking around, and the room felt more and more surreal.
I wanted to go a little deeper so I took a third small toke. Now there was shimmering in the air, and the shadows seemed like they were dancing, and the painting on the wall seemed to have its own existence behind it. After lying down and closing my eyes, I saw faint circular patterns with intricate colours and shapes withing shapes. I didn't want to accidentally breakthrough so I waited a little bit before taking another hit in order to get accustomed to this new experience.
After coming down I was deeply relaxed and in a peaceful mood, music became more visual and I felt like the universe was just a huge fractal vibration, and what we experience is just segments of this fractal at a time.
I'm still not ready for a full experience but I hope building up to it will make it less overwhelming. It really made me realised how brave some of you are to venture deeper into this other state of mind. Afterwards I began thinking of a song in the movie 'Frank' titled 'I love you all', and I began to feel love for everything in the universe, good or bad, there is always a reason for people's actions.
So I'll leave you with this. I love you all.