I did not post this trip because I didn't know how to fully write it. Its pretty hard to put into letters through this keyboard but here goes.
I was at my brothers house just hanging out watching some south park. I brought up a batch of infused leaf. It was mint with just dmt infused, no maoi's.
As I sit there packing up a bowl of this stuff, id didn't measure out the dose of freebase I added to this. As well as before packing it into my bong....(face palm to self) I now measure my doses accurately with a scale
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As I drew the bong really soft and steadily fanned the top of the bowl with my hand to create some more combustion while dragging slow, milked it all the way then, (gurgle gurgle gurgle RUSH). I put the bong down and waited.
As the effects started coming on I can feel how heavy this was coming, like a freight train that wont stop, a stampede of elephants! As it became uneasy and very very heavy the room melted and my eyesight was no more, I could not perceive the room I was in anymore and I was gone...
I lied back in my comfy chair and let go as I desperately seeked meditation to keep my cool. As I focused on my breathing very gently I started falling down a blackish red hole, straight down a tube, moderately fast but not nascar fast.
As I went through I felt myself change, and saw it at the same time. My body deconstructed and turned into a single cell, then a molecule, then an atom, then something really weird happened as if it wasn't weird enough. I became a singularity something I did not know what I was. I was floating out in a blackish red void like a womb in space, incased in the cosmic universes womb, where I believe all consciousness starts. Felt real, so real I can say it was real, very vivid.
As I floated in this void, questions started floating in very rapidly, like my inner voice of curiosity and started my own drill of questions into myself:
"Who am I?"
"What am I doing Here?"
"Why cant I remember who I am?"
"WHY DO I EXIST?!"
As these questions resonated and stirred like a boiling pot of stew in my being I felt a strong, indescribable sense, my being was engulfed with light and my answers started coming with full on spectrum of pictures with my thoughts being taken over, I couldn't stop this being from speaking through me, as it spoke, my thoughts were synced up with its so I was saying it at the same time like repeat after me kind of thing, but at the same time with same feelings.
"I am Who I Am."
"I am the Omega, The Center, The Light."
"I am Here Because I choose to be."
"I Exist Because I Simply Can."
"Don't forget again please, remember who YOU are."
With these five lines of responses I felt the feeling of the divine, completely blown away! The source, existence as it is? I couldn't wrap my head around it but this being made me see it, and become it! For a few brief seconds I felt like I knew it all. I was the source with the source! All in one. From the beginning to the end and beyond that.
I started coming down and the Light left me with a gentle hug of reassurance that it was the one. Man, im tearing up because this was soo god awfully strong I still feel this resonating in me it wont leave, and I don't want it to. I have soo much more patience with things, I respect opinions waaaaayyyy more, I don't fly off the handle, I don't drink as much any more ( I still enjoy a good drink lol) .
I was touched by the divine and im soo blessed to have this exp. happen to me! I wouldn't trade it for anything, I feel something I haven't before. I feel complete, no more stress, worries, teetering on a fence of feelings of problems "Everything Is As It Should Be." Kind of vibe.
I come back and my brother told me dude you were gone for like a good 10 min. jus sitting there. I respond and said "It didn't feel like ten minuets man.. If only you knew what happened". I told him about this and he didn't know what to think.
A rare gem of a trip that was, I will treasure it always as It taught me what I know now. Don't remember all of it, but I know the framework now lol (I think) lol
Thanks for reading guys! Namaste and Gods speed!
Urs truly ---dls---