About 20 minutes ago I smoked DMT and I'm trying to remember what happened.
First thing I noticed was the music. My god it was beautiful. It was like the best trance music I've ever heard. It sounded like machinery but it was the same sound looping over and over. Once it manifested early in my trip I heard it rest of the time. I'm travelling through these rooms, I say rooms because I could perceive the spacial walls. It looks like there's different realms and I was passing through them, I don't know how big they are but I only passed through maybe 4-6 within a couple of seconds each. I didn't get to explore them.
In terms of time I felt like I was there for ages. It can't say it feels like I was there for 3 earth hours, because it really doesn't feel like time occurs at all in the realms. I don't think that makes sense so I'll move on.
I can't yet see the entities but I know they are there possibly hidden in the walls of the dimensions. I felt I was being watched the entire time. Like they were students watching a lower organism. Something happened during the trip, maybe I thought the wrong thing or my mind was too distracted but Immediately I sensed I did something wrong with my mind. The trip started spiraling downward and I couldn't stop it. I really can't explain what I mean by spiraling downward but I realised the more I grasped, panic, or was like "oh shit I'm spiraling downward", it manifested itself, it kept getting worse the more I did this.
So Instead, I tried a different approach. Relax, just watch and learn, don't think. It was at this moment when I felt all the entities were watching me. They wanted to see if I could establish pure awareness without thought. I tried my best to just not think. I was sort of distracted by everyone watching me though, I was like oh cool everyone's watching me to see if I can do this. So they probably gave up and I got sent to the next place.
I guess I wasn't very good at it, which means I need more work in my meditation. It could be that a jumpy mind needs to be controlled so that the entities can begin their work on us, whatever that may be.
I felt the infinite stream of information too. I was like ohh, that must be what everyone is talking about. I couldn't understand it, but perhaps they transferred it onto my DNA for future use.
A white dragon thing escorted me out of the realm (it kind of reminded afterward of the dragon from the neverending story). I didn't know how to interact with anything in the realms so I just kind of stared at it as it flew through the space. You can actually see inside the dragon like an X-ray machine in colour, and It seemed to be made up of all these souls or creatures.
I think the first trip is very important. Once your in there you may try and figure everything out during the trip. Like the existential or philosophical implication this may have on your existence. It might change everything. Yet at the same time, you have to pay attention with what's happening in front of you so the first trip may be the most distracting.
and I understood a bit better why people get freaked out on DMT might never want to do it again. I can only imagine what would happen to someone who kept spiraling downward not being able to just let go. People who experience panic, anxiety or fear may have the most difficulty here but that's like any mind-manifesting drug I guess.