I'm going to do the best I can to describe what has been happening to me. Apologies for the long post, I've just got very little resources to consult.
First, about me. I've been blessed with what could be described as a perfect life. Although my parents divorced when I was 10 years old, they both were a constant presence in my life and allowed me the freedom to do as I pleased, to ask questions, and all the while loving me infinitely and providing the comfort of home. We've never been materially prosperous; I grew up in a trailer park in the middle of no where and surrounded by addicts (my parents are simple pot smokers). I'm now in another city, living with my best friends and going to school. Needless to say, my state of mind has been consistently happy. I've had my ups and my downs, as with anyone, but overall I am counting my lucky stars on a daily basis for how happy and blessed I have been. I've also studied eastern philosophy for over two years, and can say that I am at complete peace with the struggle of incarnation. I meditate daily and maintain balance and peace in my life.
I've been dabbling with altered states of consciousness for about four years now. My first psychedelic experience was with mushrooms; a relatively harmless experience shared with my best friend and the movie Tommy Boy (and I also told my mother that I was tripping balls during the trip, she just laughed and asked what strain I ate).
Fast forward a bit, and I've become quite experienced with numerous chemicals and settings. My friends and I are accomplished psychonauts (accomplished as possible without having dabbled with DMT breakthroughs).
Here's where things get peculiar, and one of the reasons I consult the Nexus today. On December 21st, 2012, my friends and I gathered to trip on mushrooms. To date, that trip is one of the strangest I've experienced and I believe it's the trip that "sparked" the following events.
During the trip, I experienced a sense of premonition. I "knew" that something was going to happen to me. I felt it. I had no idea what it was, or when it would happen or why.
What I didn't know about this premonition is how accurate it would turn out to be.
Now, this is where language begins to fail me. This premonition came true when I ate a BUNCH of BHO. I was literally tripping off THC and had some kind of "anxiety attack" (note I've never been prone to anxiety). During the attack, I experienced EXTREME deja vu and KNEW/FELT this is what the premonition was showing me. I had experienced the SAME exact thoughts I had thought during my premonitory experience. I SAW the same thing I had seen with my mind during that premonition.
Now, during this anxiety attack, I was very aware of what I was thinking. Like my mind was yelling at me. I can't type out exactly what these thoughts were, but they began with "this is how it is." This is important for my breakthrough experience.
Fast forward to today, I decided to prepare some Changa on a simple 10x Caapi leaf.
I was determined to breakthrough at some point, but I feel these kinds of experiences are best left to the Universe and would happen when it was meant to happen.
This last weekend, it happened. And as my consciousness was exiting my body, no longer was I myself, the SAME exact thoughts from my "anxiety attack" in the same exact pattern. I had been told what my breakthrough experience would be like when I had experienced that anxiety attack.
During the breakthrough, I was no longer myself. I have very little recollection of the experience itself, but my consciousness became the consciousness of the world. My individual perspective shattered and my mind became One with the All.
TL;DR here
My question is, has anyone else experienced premonition through their psychedelic journey? Especially during Psilocybin and DMT experiences?
Thanks for reading this, I hope someone out there has had a similar experience because I'm uncertain about continuing my psychedelic practices.