I my recent experience post I wrote that I'd felt the calling back to dmt and it had been over 2 months since my last few experiences. This happened last night.
There's an upcoming psy party I'm going to and I wanted to test my changa batch that I made a few weeks back as the dmt had turned out very oily and I was unsure of it's potency so I infused it into a 1:1 changa and just let it cure.
So the experience.. I had spent the whole day in quite a reflective state whilst brewing 50g of red caapi which I would drink prior to smoking. I was feeling quite nervous as the last oral harmala + dmt session I'd had, had led to an extremely overwhelming experience which lead to a beautiful conclusion. I had smoked a few more times after that one where I broke through and connected to this entity that was completely cold and merged conciousness which my ego fought and left me very rattled. After that I'd had an experience where I experienced total amnesia and almost no visuals at all. I felt like I had been tricked and abandoned and I just couldn't get a grip on what was going on.
After drinking my caapi tea I spent a half hour meditating trying to get my fast beating heart to slow down which I managed several times but each time the thought of smoking the dmt entered my mind my heart started racing again. I eventually reached a calm state but whilst taking deep breaths before smoking 0.1 1:1 changa (wasn't very pure dmt) my heart started racing again and I hit it anyway, cleared it in one hit, put the bong aside and lay down and forced a smile while waiting for what was to come. It started with some flat simple patterns which seemed to grow depth and then become more and more intricate until I found myself in some sort of place. Although there was nothing threatening or overwhelming about this place my heart was beating very fast because I was afraid of that entity I'd encountered before. I looked around this place a bit which was filled with geometric structures that were constantly changing until I found a corridoor with light at the end and in a way I can't explain I was signaled to enter this corridoor but I had started coming down from the experience so I opened my eyes and there was a huge fractal netlike structure hanging down from the ceiling which seemed to have a female presence that was joyful and I thought to myself, There's nothing to be afraid of! they want you to be here!.
2nd experience: After around 10 or 15 minutes I decided I'd go again with the same dosage. this time my heart was relaxed although there was still a tiny bit of fear left in me. When I hit the bong and put it down I was greeted by these strange zig zag leg like things which were going in and out of my face I thought 'this is strange' and they suddenly stretched open to reveal this lab like place where they play with conciousness or something. I saw a whole bunch of rectangles infront of me and I knew that there was a whole bunch of entities (which I have met before on another trip) behind these rectangles and I realised I should quiet my mind and let go and when I did these rectangles started to stretch out and slide around and just do impossible things and I noticed that these rectangles are like layers to my self and when I let go I allowed these entities to start re arranging these layers and I felt 100% comfortable letting them do this. I started coming down and opened my eyes to record what had just happened.
3rd experience: So after hitting the bong with the same dose I immediately saw a jolt of electricity come from the bong and I knew that this one was going to be special. on closing my eyes I was greeted by these rectangles again but suddenly the entities that were behind them just burst through them! They were huge and wore dark clothing and I don't think I could make out their faces but they were holding these rectangles and they were shoving them in and out of my face like TAKE THIS TAKE THIS CHECK IT OUT and were also doing all sorts of incredible things with these rectangles and there were hundreds of these entities but somehow I was able to see them all at once even though they were huge. I focused on one of the rectangles and suddenly I found myself ontop of it and the entity flipped it over his head and suddenly I was in this place. It was like the corridoor to a nice office building, Everything was a sort of faint lime green colour with darker green stripes and details along the walls. I saw that there was a man in a suit pants and a nice shirt with a tie standing infront of me and it was almost from the perspective of me being a child, He was much taller than me and I couldn't see his head as it went just beyond my vision. I looked to my right and there was a child or something who seemed to be part of the wall like he was inside it but hugging it and he just looked at me expressing a feeling I can't really describe. I thought that this was the world I belonged to but I started wondering how I got here, I started thinking back through what I had experienced and realised that I infact originate from another world and that's where I belong. I continued to look around and on another wall there was geometric shapes hollowed out in the wall and it made a face and it explained to me that being here is just a bunch of fun, It's just a big joke and I really felt like I understood!. at this point things started fading and I opened my eyes to quickly blurt out what I'd just experienced so I wouldn't forget it like I usually do but everything I write now is from memory and I still have pretty clear images which is unusual for me.
After this I tried going back a while after but I felt shut out.
I'd never experienced drinking caapi before smoking dmt I'd only worked with rue and I'll say that I enjoyed this much more as I seemed to pick up where I left off each time rather than it being completely random each time. also everytime I smoked I seemed to end up in this lab of conciousness that I ended up in on my first every breakthrough where I made direct contact with one of these entities who took a hold of me and just filled my head with information and truths which I forgot almost instantly as I came down. I wonder if the caapi helped me get back to this place or is it the fact that my first extraction was a somewhat oily product and this batch was also an oily product? I used too much each in my pulls using naptha so it can't have been jungle spice, Is there anything else in mhrb which could alter the experience?
In this place everything is always very humorous. This experience really has filled my head with questions again haha.. Anyone experienced things like this?
Sorry if this messily written, I'm still fairly scattered from yesterday and I also ended up having a very meaningful dream that felt incredibly real so I'm taken back by that also.
EDIT: over the day I've had time to reflect a bit on the experience and I'm starting to think that these rectangles or slides each represent their own universe. I chose one of the slides out of the hundreds that were being offered to me and ended up in a place very different from any I've been before from smoking dmt and I recall another similar experience after drinking syrian rue tea and vaping dmt where I saw many entities wearing black spandex like suits that were also offering something to me much in the same way as the experience last night although I found it hilarious and didn't let go and get any further I don't think (Unless I forgot afterwards, I recall entering a world in much the same manner although I don't know if it was in that same experience although it was in the same session)
I also remembered that at the end of the session I rolled to my right and had my face in my pillows and with my eyes closed I saw this incredibly feminine entity that was a mess of femininity which was very attractive although extremely alien.