Hello, everybody! I'd like to introduce myself!
Idk where to start, so I'll just give you guys a little bit of context info.
I'll go by TP, and I just recently turned 18.
I am from central/southern U.S., right smack dab in the middle of the bible belt, but ironically, also within the "Meth Capital of the World."
In fact, my childhood sort of revolved around my mom who was an addict at the time. (First opiates, then meth)
We were homeless and would either live out of her car,or with whoever she was "with" at the time, you know?
It was hard stuff for sure, but i wouldn't change a bit of it.I learned a lot about life, and over time it gave me a sort of basis to relate things to. (if that makes much sense)
I guess what i mean is that at the time, it was frustrating, but as ive gotten a bit(because I realize im still a young blood, with lots to lesrn) older, it has made a bit more sense. With that, resentment and self pity can sort of fade away, into... well, something better. understanding?

But my momma's been clean for years,and we're closer than ever, so there's that.

In 6th grade my dad got custody of me, and i made the transition from the life with my addict mom, to a life with my conservative, police officer dad. Yes, I DID say police officer lol a lieutenant even! But, yeah, that's had its own struggles, me being the sort of person i am and all. I lived there with him until i turned 18, and then moved in with my older sister, who is a pretty successful psychologist.

Now, idk if you guys wanted to hear all that about my family life, or whatever, but the context will most likely help to explain the evolution of my drug use, and how it has brought me to this sweet,SWEET website.

I experienced cannabis and alcohol together, for the first time doing either. This was in the 8th grade. (i know, its a little young, but oh well)This was while i was living with my dad, who was very strict at the time, and had tried to instill in me the idea that those that sought altered mindsets were "losers", and unfortunately he was successful for quite some time, but i grew pretty weary of his beliefs when i started to realize how ignorant, and prejudiced a lot of them were. Needless to say, the weed/drink mix blew my mind, and gave me the funnest time of my life. I continued smoking and drinking, mostly for fun, and not for any spiritual reasons. I had been pretty depressed and these things seemed to help as long as i was high/drunk. One thing led to another, and i developed an opiate addiction, as an unhealthy and noneffective way of dealing with a social phobia/anxiety and a lot of pent up internal guilt/shame etc. i dabbled with coke too.

That continued until about October of last year,when i had a few spiritual experiences, and was for the first time confronted with that sort of all-encompassing love/ connectivity. I think most of you on the website get exactly what i mean. I was finally able to look at the universe in the ways beyond how it directly affected me. This allowed me to go through more personal growth since then, to now, than in the entire rest of my existence. I quit using opiates, and drinking, and smoked less than before. I worked on all of the things i needed to work on and was making decent progress. definitely a struggle, and a process, but still progress.

Then in February of this year,things took an unexpected turn. I was introduced to what i thought at the time was LSD, but was actually only 25i-nBOME. It was what i had experienced before, without the drug, and infinitely more, almost melting away all of the problems which i had been dealing with. One thing I've learned is that mind and body follow spirit. If spirit is neglected then mind and body will take on a state of neglect as well, and vise versa. idk, it helped me to realize that the things i was worried about were only what i call "human problems" and in the grand scheme of the universe are entirely petty.

I am a pretty frequent user of the RC nBOME, probably a total of 15 times since late february, and again, so much personal growth that has lasting effects outside of the high from the drug.
I have always had a slight interest in DMT, and even more so recently. I have not used it as I believe it is irresponsible to buy on the streets, (as i know the nexus also believes) and because i have not yet had a chance to extract my own, as i need a permitting location. After reading extensively here on the nexus, I am interested in freebase DMT,and ayahuasca, BUT I AM MOST INTERESTED IN CHANGA.
I am glad to now be a part of a community that will help me to explore the universe, consciousness, and the profound effects that these chemicals can have on us and the implications that they can carry.
I know this was most likely a pretty uninteresting introduction, as i tried to condense so much into such a small post, but i figure it covers the basics.
Thanks for having me guys!






I'm very glad to have found such a nice community to learn from.

I realize i've accidentally posted this twice, but am not sure how to delete one. I apologize.

EDIT: looks like someone took careof it for me, thanks

Welcome, Explorer!

Wow, sounds like you've had a turbulent few years!

As someone who's been at this a while, I'd recommend easing off the gas on the NBOME. Several reasons why.

First of all, NBOME isn't as effective nor safe as LSD. If you can get LSD instead, do it.

Secondly, space out your sessions a bit. It's easy to be blown away by how great psyches are, but it's also easy to overdo it. Psyches, as sound aware, aren't just an amusing few hours. These things can rattle through your very soul. Leave it until you have reasons to go into it. Make sure that when you do that you've got a great set and setting to take the drug. Afterwards, give it enough to time to analyse and take on board what you've learned (I'd say at the very least leave two months).

Finally, it is very, very easy to pour your pain into anything at 18. I had a tough time myself growing up as a kid (mum with bi-polar, dad left, she got an abusive ex-SAS boyfriend who beat the shit out of me, and more!), which was topped off by my best friend dying at 18 on the last night of a festival. After that, I went on a drug, drinking, and womanising binge which would last three years (ironically, until I got to university). It didn't do me any favours. And while you are free to blow off steam anyway you see fit, what I know 11 years later is the best way to feel good is to be good to yourself, and to find time to think about your thinking

There will probably be people with different view points, but that's mine. Do what you will with it!

As for the DMT, I'd recommend earning your stripes with some other psyches as I personally found it a pretty stunning experience that I understood better thanks to the states I've been in thanks to lucy, shrooms, and mescaline. However, again, that's just personal opinion - there's plenty of DMT guys and girls here who haven't been introduced to the rest of the family!