Welcome to the Nexus!
Glad you have been changing unhealthy habits and working on yourself, and now found this place! The Nexus is not only interesting and full of nice people, but IME it seems to really potentiate members´ self development. Hopefully you will also grow even more with your presence here, as well as give back and help the community develop too

Regarding your impression of what DMT experience is like, I think you might be in for a big surprise.. While it may have the loving blissful aspect, it def can go beyond that, and can get quite rough too.. Please do check the
Health And Safety section. Take special note on the dark entities part since it can really help you prepare for the tough encounters which may happen, though in general if you do your part taking care of set and setting, things should be generally fine.
Good luck, be well!