Recalling my first experience with Dimethyltryptamine

Foreword: this will most likely be really detailed and fairly long, if you're not prepared or willing to read for 5+ minutes exit now :-) also I have changed the names in this account of real events to protect the identities of some of my closest friends and fellow psychonauts. Benny and Jenny live with me and are dating. Dr. Ugs is our close friend and introduced us all to DMT.


One day about a month and a half ago Benny, Jenny, Dr. Ugs and I are sitting around the living room watching music videos and silly things on YouTube. It comes to Dr. Ugs to suggest something for us to watch and he takes the Xbox controller and types in "DMT : The Spirit Molecule" and proceeds to press play. Little did we know that we had just reached a turning point in our lives. We watch the documentary and afterward we are discussing the things we liked/didn't like, and what we thought about it in general. I expressed my desire to try this mysterious substance. A grand conversation full of apprehension and excitement ensues in which Dr. Ugs asks us each how seriously we wanted to try DMT and what we thought it might accomplish. To be honest in the beginning I was sincerely hoping I might meet an intelligent being that would reveal my purpose in life or reveal some secrets of the universe and our minuscule existence in it. And each of us in turn, save for Jenny who seems the most apprehensive/least excited, tell what we want to gain from the experience and what our fears were. At this point Dr. Ugs reveals that he has used DMT and he has a fair supply of it if we seriously wanted to give it a go. He was extremely calm and eased almost all of our fears about having bad/scary trips and ill effects from the drug. He asked one last time if we were sure we wanted to try it and upon receiving our answers (Jenny said she still was not sure but would think more about it while the rest of us tried it out) he left promising to return in a few minutes.

Scarcely more than two minutes later Dr. Ugs returned with a small purple felt-lined wooden box with golden stars embroidered into it. We venture excitedly behind him into the kitchen where he sits at the table and opens the box. Inside is a small glass jar with what he said was about 1g of DMT crystals which were off white and had an earthy/chemical smell to them. Next. He pulls a small blue satchel out of the box with little golden stars also embroidered into it. Out of this satchel he retrieves a crack pipe the long skinny ones with the bulb at one end. Immediately we are apprehensive about the pipe because of all the negative attention it has. Dr. Ugs quells our fears and assures us this pipe has only been used to vaporize DMT crystals. I'm still somewhat apprehensive but I trust my friend and so we continue. He uses a short straw that has been cut at an angle to retrieve some DMT out of the glass jar and carefully piled a couple "strawfulls" into the glass globe. Dr. Ugs tells us the proper way to inhale the vapors as he's heating them and asks who wants to go first. I volunteer :-)


Dr. Ugs then asks me if I ever meditate, I say yes and he says now is a good time to do so that he would melt the crystals in the pipe and begin warming it slowly and to let him know when I was ready. About a minute later I tell him I'm ready and I lean forward and he puts the pipe to my lips and we wait for the vapors to start curling in the globe. As I'm waiting I'm trying desperately to control my heartbeat and breathing because I'm insanely nervous and excited and scared. I see the vapors start to curl around the inside of the globe and Dr. Ugs says "Now remember Inhale long and slow until your lungs are full, hold it as long as you can, at least ten seconds, exhale and come back for another hit immediately."

I slowly suck the end I the pipe watching the vapor swirling in the globe in taste nothing, I feel nothing in my lungs, I keep inhaling and keep inhaling for about 15 -30 seconds. I pull away from the pipe and hold my breath slowly counting to 15 on my head 1...2...3...4 my hands and fingers are tingling, that's weird, is that normal?5...6...7...8...9...10...11...12... My arms hands legs fingers are vibrating slowly and rhythmically, I think "fuck this is soo weird!!!" 15 I blow out virtually nothing but my lungs feel empty and mildly sore from holding my breathe. He says you need at least one more hit to really get there. He puts the pipe to my lips and says easy hits, I begin inhaling and can't decide how long it's taking I'm watching the vapor curl and swirl in the globe and I feel altogether extremely weird, nothing is quite as it should be. I pull back from the pipe inhaling a little air and hold my breathe again...1...2...3 an intensely loud vibrating high pitched noise is issuing from what seems to be the core of my body vibrating my entire body blocking out all sound, I think " OMG! What the fuck is this? Is this for real? What did I do this for?" I've lost track of time and my lungs hurt and there is an immense pressure that felt as if the entire world is pressing in upon every inch of my body, I exhale and close my eyes.

Upon closing my eyes I sit for an instant in complete darkness the pressure is overwhelming, the high pitched sound/vibration feels like it's about to rip my body into shreds. BOOM-WHOOSH the vibration dissipates and the sound immediately ceases, at the same instant my visual field is filled with twisting-rotating-sliding-flexing-bending lines that are made up of an infinite number of neon colors. I float in front of this scene for a long time watching it bend and flex and slide and rotate and twist in never ending beauty. I float here for what seems like a really really long time and I begin to worry what happened to my body, I dare to open m eyes, I find I'm able to open my eyes and that the room was exactly as I had left it and my three compatriots are starin at me and looking excited and happy which greatly eases my stresses. I look down at my hands that were in my lap palm down and still they felt incredibly heavy and like I shouldn't try to move them. I try to move them anyway and find that the heaviness I perceived didn't exist and my hands moved as freely as they ever had before. I take a deep breath and let it out slowly I close my eyes again and find that the scene I had left when I opened my eyes was eagerly awaiting my return as if I had never looked away from it. I am much more relaxed now and really begin to enjoy the visual show from the extremely pretty colors twisting and twirling around. After what seems another really long time I open my eyes and look around the room breathing normally and looking at my friends who are still sitting quietly waiting for me to finish my trip. Dr. Ugs asks quietly "Are you back?" I think about it for a moment and decide that yes I am "back" I answer him "yes" and I ask "how long was I gone?" He answers "About a minute and a half, I don't think you got enough dmt into you to get the full dose" I feel so strange to have felt like I was gone for hours out of m body and only a minute an a half had passed, and I felt pretty much like I had felt before inhaling the dmt vapors except now I'm extremely relaxed and euphoric everything looks brighter and it feels like I can hear much better than before. I sit in silence for another moment or two and then Dr. Ugs asks if there was anything I wanted to try and describe. I look at him and at my friends and I laugh and he laughs and says "I know it's pretty intense right" I agree and the I try and explain what happened what I felt and saw, and I failed miserably :-)

my other friends Benny and Jenny both took their turns and so it went on. It took about an hour for the euphoria to fade away and for me to be able to clearly express what I'd felt and when if felt it. I spent this time enjoying the silence and enjoying watching my friends experience what I'd just felt.





Thank you to all who have read this, if you have any questions or want to make any comments or observations they are greatly appreciated.
I'm going to try and attach a photo of what I saw on my trip I found almost the exact image I saw but it isn't moving ;-) and the female figure in the middle also was not in my trip.