So I'm posting here mostly as a way to journal my experiences, maybe gain some insight.
I guess I should start off by saying I went into this with the full intention to breakthrough. My goal being to see if there really were "entities" on the other side. In past experiences with psyches I've had very little occurrences with them.
I was having alot of trouble with pre flight anxiety. I'd decided on sandwiching 40 mgs between some shake. I turned on some throat singing and meditated for around an hour.Huun-Huur-Tu - Live At this point I'd decided that the butterflies just were not going away. And as I'd been staring down a glass jar with about a gram of some pretty looking spice for the past few days, I told myself to just let go and jump in head first.
I put on this song Pandit Ravi Shankar- Raga Asa Bhairav and load up the frosted glass black rose bong. I take my soldering iron and hover it over my top layer of herb till it just barely takes light. I burn it slowly and inhale deeply and hold, another hit slowly gets pulled in, cleared, nothing... I draw in the third and final time and about halfway into the draw I get a super strange buzzing in my solar plexus. I'm holding in the final hit and as soon as I exhale the sounds of my breath start to vibrate matter itself.
The empty space infront of me starts to coalesce into a whirling black/purple/magenta portal. "Oh Christ, I really did it this time! I hope I make it back." My thoughts race. I lean back in the lotus position on my black leather couch and close my eyes.
I see an image that seems to be pressed into the front of my eyelids (like when you put pressure on your closed eyes). It looks like a trident thrust into a weird looking W. It very much reminded me of the lingam and the yoni merging together. BOOM. Its like there was no "tunnel" that I've heard so much about. I was just in another realm entirely!
I woke up in what seemed like a giant flask of LSD. Colours were swimming everywhere around me and I start to feel this presence (may be the best word to use). It emotes (not exactly talks) at me "Do you know what you just did?/ Why the hell are you here, do you know?" And I emote back "Yes I vaped 40 mgs DMT." I try and force a smile at it.
I entity basically emotes a nod and starts showing me all this crazy information. Wild written exotic languages that look like right angle lines interspersed between dots and other parallel lines, mixed in with storm clouds, cells, atoms and who knows what.
At this point the trip seems to be pulling me up into another plane. I look around and everything is bathed in this incredible white light and it looks like I'm in a bejewelled cathedral hundreds of stories high. At this point I slowly started to drift back to baseline.
This was not what I expected it to be in the least. Like an incredibly vivid dream, immediately after I came out I couldn't remember specific details. Only a few days later has all the information really started to sink in and take solid form. Does anybody else ever feel this way about a breakthrough?