I've been reading about dmt for years, fascinated by the prospect of hidden worlds and the strangeness of it all. I was able to take the leap this summer...it showed me a reality (or lack there of) that will stay with me for the rest of my life.

Holding my second lungful, the world as I knew it began to mirror on itself in a peculiar way. A rapidly approaching train horn-tidal wave of every audible frequency slowly pushed me backwards into my head, vision tunneled, I closed my eyes. I let my breath out as I closed my eyes... as I breathed out it felt as if my lungs expanded into nothing and everything at once... and I couldn't take another breath back in, I had no body.

I could feel every one of my teeth vibrating in my scull, and it felt the entire wiring of nerves in my body were on fire, buzzing with energy. If my consciousness could have physical sensation, it felt like i was somersaulting through my scull, back and forth sorta falling out and in. I can only describe it as falling through fluid warm sand. All in a slow sluggish spinning motion, slow but constant.

I kept questioning "Is this happening?" Yes... and its beyond what ANYONE can put into words. The experience puts every bit you can read about a trip to shame. It feels like I'm falling, falling, falling... forward? Backward? In? Out?

There was no physical world and I was no longer "in control" ...just on for the ride. I could barely see this faded vibrating rainbow silhouette of my scull from slightly behind it. The silhouette of my teeth comes back, vibrating with color. Neon sorta black-light colors. I think one of the big reasons people have a hard time putting these experiences into words is the fact that you can't perceive dimensionality or depth when you have no physicality to compare things to.

This deep, endless spiral checkerboard pattern arose from the vibrating chaos. Three audible tones began to repeat over and over as i slowly spun within this new dimension. Each square of the spiraling checkerboard whirlpool was flickering between different colors. I recall fractals of the initial spiral checkerboard also spinning beyond and around the large center spiral.

At the center of the biggest spiral was a silhouetted face glowing intense white and radiating color around the edges. It looked something like a garden gnome wearing a hat. I was pretty disturbed when this guy appeared and I deeply questioned its significance. I couldn't look away as I had no eyes to do so with. This thing just sorta sat there in the center of the spinning spiral grinning at me. All the while, these three notes played like a creepy sing-song lullaby or something.

After a few minutes of this, I had a sudden thought that perhaps I COULD control my experience and I put every ounce of effort into this idea. A bright blue light split across the "mind-scape" and I realized I was opening my eyes. The moment I realized I could, it was as if they were slammed open.

The world as I knew it was the same, but absolutely different with a new astonishing clarity. Everything that I could see was split up into very uniform triangular mirrored shapes. The tree in the center of the grass was perfectly symmetrical. It was mirrored on itself and fractal in an indescribably complex but symmetrical quality. As the wind blew through it, the dimensional fractal form would move with the wind...but remain uniform.

I glanced over at my friend who had blasted off after me, he was wide-eyed staring at the tree too. He said "its perfect" and I almost burst into tears. The strangest thing was he was not mirrored or fractal at all. He was perfectly normal, but everything around us was distorted and different. I looked up at the cloudy sky, the entire dome of the sky was split into hexagonal and triangular mirrored forms. As the clouds would move through the forms, I could distinctly see the breakup between the mirror shards. I created an image to imitate how it looked. Of course it doesn't do it justice. The sun broke through the clouds beyond the tree, god-rays blasting out towards me. I was back and the warm sun on my skin seemed to be a reminder how beautiful this life and physicality can be. I felt so blessed to have returned to be able to live this life and experience the unbelievably complex perfection all around me.

Has anyone else opened their eyes during a trip? I felt like I was seeing behind the curtains or something. I thought it was especially strange how my friend hadn't changed at all when I looked at him.

Also, I'm assuming I saw a "machine elf", I'll do a drawing of what it looked like. Anyone seen a similar image?

The gnome

Here's a pic I made of what the sky looked like. The sky

eyes open or closed seemed to make no real difference to me at the chrysanthemum.

I find it interesting how the dimensional fractal form blew in the wind. In my experience these things do in fact interact with the matter of our world; at the least, they are affected by the matter of our world even if they don't affect that matter back (or if only subtly).

This reminds me of the interaction between ordinary matter and dark matter (WIMPs or weakly interacting massive particles). Maybe the theory that DMT hyperspace is dark matter is not so far fetched after all.

During my first DMT experience, I was woken up early by my cat getting into somewhere she wasn't sopost to. I recognized the sound and snapped my eyes open and the world was exotic and strange. For example, a picture was not a picture. It was 20 translucent layers of shimmering energy were separate, yet I KNEW made up the picture. looking at those layers gave the same information that looking at the picture did. very interesting.

I JUMPED up and grabbed the cat. But I could not see the cat, I saw a fuzzy blurry ball of energy. Not able to see the scruff, I guessed as to where the scruff was, grabbed towards the middle of the ball and tossed her aside. I TOTALY missed the scruff and she was mad for at LEAST 2 days. After my muscle memory relinquished control of my body back to me, I looked around me and for the first time attempted to comprehend what I was seeing. cool arrows spiraling up a vase, all the trees in the room waving and saying hi, glad that I could understand them.. but what I remember the most was the cobwebs. There were floating cobwebs throughout the room. I know that to be the fabric of the universe.

Im pretty sure I woke up early. I was only in my trip for 3 minutes. It wasn't until after that settled down (about 2-3 minutes)that I started noticing the perfection around me like you did. During that 2-3 minutes, IT kept taking me back, IT wouldn't let me go fully out or fully in, very disturbing. The world formed around me to normal perfection, and then I realized that it was dmt playing with me and BAM, everything would dissipate in the way that can only be understood by someone who has also seen it, and it formed again. and again, and again. each time I was like "ahh, this is nice, where am I at, wait... somethings not right..." blkldjfausdfsljfda and it pulls me back in.

Im guessing that is what happens if you smoke a GOOD dose, but you wake up early. the DMT is still in your system, so it either pulls you back in, or you experience this reality as an extra-dimensional creature, like your still fully under the influence of DMT, but instead of going to a different dimension, you stay in this body, which IS capable of containing an enlightened being.

It was amazing, but it would be hard to function if it stayed like that, hard to focus. So as I came out of DMT, everything slowly dissipated. I witnessed these layers of stuff slowly merge, and as the individual layers merged with each other I saw the picture slowly start to form until I was at the point that I knew to be where I was to wake up under normal circumstances. but I got something special from this experience. I realized as the bridge to nirvana was disassembled that it is impossible to completely take that bridge apart again once you experience whats on the other side. Its impossible. I realized that a few bricks were left behind. I am not as separated from myself as i was before.

I personally think you woke up exactly when you should have, to see what you needed to see. because I am pretty sure if you woke up early, and the DMT was still hardcore in your system, it would have tried to pull you back.

Magnetically yours,
Me