I've been a member on here for some time now, I'm not a heavy forum go'er, if I can't really post any of my own opinions on any of the threads, which is kind of a pain in the ass way to force people to tell you who they are, which is completely understandable with the jargon going on, and especially spam, but I would like to be able to reach a little deeper into the Nexus, so...

My screenname is Methodology, if you want my real name, you can ask really hard, and maybe I'll give it to you , but for security reasons, I really don't trust throwing my name out to the crowd, even though you could just scan my IP and instantly find everything about me, but regardless, I've been a avid ethnobotantical lover for quite some time, love the mindscape, especially psilocybin related(s), and usually dwell in and out of the actual need for an escape through the mind. I only ever tried dmt like maybe a year ago; by chance, my best bud actually finally concocted some using, dmt for the masses, and I actually got to experience something I never thought I would ever try. Experience was pure bliss wrapped in pure awesomeness for like 5 minutes, then POOF, your normal again, almost asleep, but awakened. Now since then I have even cultivated a sample of my own, but out of pure fear, I never tried it for ages and ages, I was just too afraid, like I am of salvia, I've always wanted to breakthrough, but am kinda afraid of the actual concept of leaving one reality for another.

I went to a music festival recently with all my old friends, just listening to fine tunes, and all going in all sorts of directions, I brought my sample with me, and actually shared it around as well. I not only relinquished my own fear, but actually showed many others the powers that such small spice can have.

I have seen great things, more powerful than anything I have ever seen while conscious, but still haven't been able to work up a breakthrough my own friend said he had. "Fliping, flying, and spinning through space, geometric patterns and shapes all about, completely another world, but as I was taking all of these images in, aliens appeared and started taking tickets out of my head."

Similiar was mine, not quite away, still semi-conscious, but, "I saw ancient Egypt, full light beings, like mummies on the walls, soft and stern, I saw a box, in a hallway, on a shelf, while I was spinning constantly, I could see my third eye inside of the box, it was like a technicolor shape, as I opened the box, all I could see was a "thousand petal" rose, morphing and changing in many directions, I knew first hand that this was the entity that I had seeked, as it sprung from the box morphing closer and closer to my vision, bedazzled, I could not look away knowing that this entity was nothing more than a parasitic alien that feeds off of my mind, even seeing the real side, I couldn't but be more amazed, I knew what it was, but just thought it was too beautiful to really care and just wanted to be inside of it, like pure heaven. As I looked above I saw a black outlined jellyfish-like squid alien monster come down from the sky and ate me, but I let it eat me, despite how evil the squid looked, I let go of all fear and just took the plunge. Once inside I did not know what to do but open my eyes and just say wow."

I know its probably not the best essay, but I don't necessarily have time to write an autobiography on myself, I work damn near everyday, and when I get home I just want to unwind, for the few mere hours I have, before I have to go back to the brain numbed reality we call life.