I recently heard about DMT after talking to someone that wanted to introduce me to this profound and mystic experience. I've in the past only tried MJ and I've sticked with that and alcohol my whole life. I've never taken any psychedelic drugs before of any kind. I've taken a standpoint to not take any harmful drugs that will lead me into a wrong direction. All the drugs I've heard about and wanted to try has been researched and I've never really tried anything except MJ.
When I first heard about DMT I thought it was a crazy idea and that it most likely were really dangerous and nothing humans should go through. I was anyways really interested in this rare and amazing crystals, refered to as spice. Amazingly the more I read about it the more I wanted to try it. I've been thinking about doing this the last week with my best friend, and by midnight today we decided to buy some after having a study session with MJ.
Half an hour later we had 100mg of orange DMT crystals that were really fine and really orange. Looked like powder. My friend started with taking half on top of some weed in a little pipe. He didn't melt it like I later did. He inhaled a couple of hits and had an amazing trip, body feeling and felt very good afterward. I picked my nice bong with fresh water. Loaded 50mg on top of a good bowl. I've heard you need a large dose to breakthrough, something I've been reading a lot about in this forum the last period. I took ONE large hit that I inhaled and held for 5 seconds or so. I wanted to hold it longer, and it wasn't really harsh at all as I thought. I put the bong away fast, I am very nervours and excited at the same time. Going from MJ to spice is a hughe step for me, and was pleased with one hit at this time. I wanted to stick with the hit I got.
What happens next is very difficult to explain, but I had a feeling I've never had before and it felt good, but I was also really nervous until I forgot about everything seconds later. I have only good memories from the trip, even though it wasn't too long. I didn't see many open eye visuals but everything was different. The whole room and setting was different wand the light gave reflections with green patterns and objectives. Nothing really too weird at this point. This is maybe 40 seconds into the trip. At his point I feel that I didn't get enough but I don't take the next hit even though I wanted to. I'm lying in my room looking at my three friends sitting in the room watching and listening to music. I'm am fascinated by looking at them, but I feel tired and want to try to close eyes and see if that would boost the trip.
In a good position on my bed I close eyes, this is probably around one minute, buts it's hard to remember. In the beginning I don't see much, but I knew what to expect and imagine and shortly later I start having mild visuals. These aren't that intense, but it starts with what is refereed to as "colorful complex geometrical patterns". I though it would be more intense though and I think at this point that I maybe should take more. I start seeing more and more and also animals and humans popps up strangely. This is again not too intense and I'm seeking a deeper trip with closer contact to entities after breaking trough. I feel like I'm going to this light and I can see a man with a coat and a hat. This isn't looking very real at all, just like a shadow, but I'm going closer to it. Other stuff popps up, but I am still at this point talking myself through the whole experience, and my friends are listening. It is a very intense body high and I'm starting to breath fast and heavy like I'm going through something cleaning process. At this point I'm a very close of taking the next hit which is half the bowl with around 20mg spice.
I open my eyes and feel very back to normal and I feel like it was only 2 minutes into the trip, but my friends told me it was 5. I felt very confused because I felt so awake and I talked about my visuals when I had my eyes closed. I even opened my eyes a couple times during the trip and felt normal, but by closing my eyes I would go back to this trip. I open my eyes and suddenly feel like the tip is over so I sit up and start talking about what's going on and what I experienced. I'm still sort of trippin', but everything feels better. I felt so relieved and my room felt so much cleaner. At this point I start to forget and mix stuff. It's hard to look back at what just happens and at some point I take the bong ready to take a new hit, but I decide to spend some time reflecting about what just happen. What just happened was my weirdest feeling ever, and I simply wanted to enjoy the moment as it was. I saved the bowl for later. I was also very scared of the drug that just showed me how powerful it could be.
Now I'm writing this two hours later. I have been smoking two joints with my friends that now have left. I'm looking at my bong filled with weed and spice, but I have different feelings about doing it alone. I also start remembering things and it's very hard to explain. I have this feeling that right after I took the hit something really weird happened in the room involving my friends. I also remember looking at my huge poster of a guy in a traditional boat from Venice. The picture was different and a voice said βdon't come closerβ. I don't really know what this means, I don't thing there is a meaning behind it, and I wasn't scared or anything. It didn't really felt it came from him, but it was weird anyways. I feel like I've experienced so much I and I'm really excited to do it again. I don't have the feeling of doing this often, but my purpose is to experience a full breakthrough that fascinates me so much, and I have no idea what to expect. I still feel like I am more prepared now and my next hit would probably be better.