Hello to all!!! This will be my first post in this forum. May I first say that I really admire this community and feel that I have much to learn and to share. Let me begin by giving an account of an experience I had a few months ago. I would like to highlight the fact that this may very well have been one of the most frighting ordeals I've ever experienced.

...So I'd had a number of encounters with DiMiTri previous to this experience, about 5 or so, all of which were with relatively low doses. This particular experience I am about to describe was with spice that SWIM had excavated for the first time by means of STB method. Having completed the first batch, SWIM called me over to his house and presented me with my share. Anxious, I returned home with the newly acquired magic spice...

It's about midday. I am home alone. I am feeling confident and ready to have my first "real" experience with the spice. All my previous experiences had been with eyes open, admiring the beauty of triptamine-induced OEV. This time, I thought, I will close my eyes, lay down, and have a real breakthrough experience. Now I must note that I was new to the magic of the spice at the time and did not pay nearly enough respect to it. That being said, I loaded Don Juan, my carved wooden inter-dimensional travel apparatus, with approx a 100mgs of spice on top of some mugwort (my favorite medium). I then proceeded to take 3 large tokes, each greater than the other. By the time I exhaled the second, I could feel the rush in my head. I took a third and final rip from my bowl...

Just as I put my pipe down, I got hit with a surge of immense energy and found myself in a familiar headspace...I swear I had what felt like 10 simultaneous deja vu's superimposed on top of one another... I looked up and saw that my room had swelled to about 10x it's size...I felt as though I was in a gymnasium that was decorated as my room...This caused me to abandon my original idea of closing my eyes as I chose instead to gaze around my room in amazement...It was quite a visual...at this point, I became somewhat concerned about my parents coming home and finding that my bedroom had expanded to such ridiculous proportions... how would I ever explain such a thing?

...All the colors were melting together, creating a picturesque portrait of beauty around me. This went on for some time as I gradually returned to what I thought was "normal". Now because my room returned to normal size, I assumed that I was fully back...I got up and looked around...This is where it gets to be scary...I look around and notice something strange...everything looks dull and bleak and there are parts of things missing from my visual field...it's hard to explain but it's as if there were pieces of space missing all around...everything was blotchy and faded.

At this point, a million things are running though my head. I am on my feet pacing around the room, searching for plausible reasons for what is going on. Suddenly, an idea comes to mind...I realize that this was SWIM's first time extraction and that it's possible that he had messed something up when working with the chemicals and that had made me go blind. Having realized this, my logical side accepted this possibility as fact due to it's plausibility. At this point I'm freaking out!!! I'm running around my room half-blinded thinking "I really did it this time". This went on for what seemed like several minutes. I was about to lose my mind when suddenly, something reminded me of how the spice can warp your concept of time entirely and I realized that I may not be fully back yet. I dove onto my bed and stuck my face into my pillow...I took a DEEP breath ... as I exhaled, I felt a surge of relief as I knew that everything was going to be alright. Surely, after laying down with my face in the pillow for 5 minutes, I looked up and confirmed that everything was indeed, just fine. This was the biggest relief ever!!!

It took me weeks to recuperate from the experience. Although it was not the spice itself that brought on the fear, but rather my lack of experience, I feel that it had caused me to pay more respect to the ally. I have had similar visual distortions since then, with zero fear thanks to this experience. If anyone out there has encountered anything similar to this, please report back. I am curious as to what causes such a thing to happen. All I have to say is that I'm glad to be here now with my vision fully intact, lesson learned, and be able to look back and laugh at myself.

Thanks for reading. Much Love to all!!! Please share any similar experiences.

I'm very new to this and have yet to have anything like that happen... Great read and thank you for sharing.

Try laying down & closing your eyes next time, much less of a dissolving of your world.
Just go to theirs!!

It's a much bigger place in there!!

WS

Couldn't agree more. I even find that too much light seeps through the closed eyelids and instinctively cover my eyes with my hands.

Nice first post Dreamer, thanks and welcome!
It sounds familiar... I remember reading some other Nexus reports (forgot which one) about people on DMT walking through apartments with eyes open, all harrowing experiences! A clue?

Not that difficult is wrong by definition: no real harm done, it deepened your respect and reduced the fear!

Yep keep your eyes closed until the CEVs are gone. Then when you open them you'll still see spice-changed reality, but in a less alarming way.

And don't worry, the "Oh no I've really done it this time" sounds very familiar! It went with time

I thought I was the only one who did that! I'm always afraid somone is going to walk in and think i'm crying or something like that.