Hi guys,

This morning I’ve smoked dmt for the first time. I did a lot of research beforehand but I already mentioned that in my introduction essay yesterday. For the smoking method I chose to build the machine. After setting everything up (lit up candle, glass of apple juice, mask for covering the eyes, thermal blanket for covering me, as well as a bucket in case of nausea) I’ve laid down in my bed. I scaled my spice to about 20-30mg (it’s a shitty scale with only two digits after the period which we got to our vaporizer. It is obviously more useful for scaling herbs instead of spice). So let’s say it was about 25 mg, give or take a little, more likely a little less I think. I took three hits. After the first one I tasted it, but didn’t feel too much. After the second one I felt a little dizziness and came to the conclusion that I probably didn’t toke hard enough. I inhaled deeply and held the vapor for about 15-20 seconds each time, but I toke kinda soft to not burn the dmt with the flame getting too close. Well after the second hit I called it go-time and took a pretty strong toke. That was when I felt it starting. In the beginning there was the humming which I heard about as the beginning of the trip. At that point I decided to lie down to let it happen. Shortly after I saw the most beautiful visualizations I have ever seen. It was beyond imagination. It started with the kaleidoscopic kind of vision shortly after turning into a wonderful golden light, which felt really warm and comforting. I felt some kind of sweat on my forehead and my hands and shortly after it was like someone was blowing softly onto my forehead to cool me down. At this point I had the urge to check if it was my girlfriend but I didn’t want to open my eyes and becoming distracted of this. I refused to check since I didn’t want to stop what was happening. I remembered hearing about this and I heard that one should not allow himself to be stuck in this first part. Don’t get overwhelmed with the visuals. You have to leave this behind to move on and breakthrough. Upon having this thought the golden light disappeared. It was as if it was slipping away faster when I tried to hold it back. I took a deep breath and tried to focus more on the feeling and the visuals, which kind of pushed everything further away. I had the feeling of not being able to let go. I couldn’t stop thinking. I reached for my machine to get another toke hoping to get back to where I was before, but I didn’t work out. Maybe the tolerance was too high at that point already. So I laid back down to let it slowly fade away enjoying as much as possible out of it. All in all it was a wonderful experience. It felt so safe. I felt so safe and secure. It was some kind of peacefulness which I’ve never experienced in my life before. I was a little disappointed in not being able to break through, but on the other hand it was such a nice feeling and a delighting experience.
I just felt like sharing this story with people who can relate to what I have felt. I tried to tell my girlfriend about it, but it is almost impossible to describe it with words. I think people who have tried dmt before can relate, but someone who never had this wonderful experience just can’t imagine what it is like.
I thought about trying again tomorrow maybe with a higher dose. After 24 hours the tolerance should be back to normal as far as I know.
So do you have any tips for me? Like I said I had the feeling of not being able to let go. And as I tried to focus and clear my mind I seemed to work against my ambitions. Did I just dose too little, or better did I toke too lightly, or did I make other/more mistakes. I had the feeling that I maybe did too much research. I knew what I was going through and tried to pass that phase in order to break through completely. That probably was the mistake. Maybe I should have just enjoyed the visuals and accept the fact that I didn’t break trough right away.
I am curious what other, more experienced psychonauts would say about my experience.
Anyways like I said it was a wonderful experience and it felt really comforting. Such much peace and joy, I don’t know how to describe it proberly. (But I knew that I would probably not be able to explain it due to my researches).

I hope you can give me any advice on how to improve for my next trip.

Greetings, yours
Anon

Very nicely explained! It's nice to read peoples first trip reviews, they always seem quite excited

Good luck on your trips my friend, have fun exploring and learning!

Congrats. Great to read a first time report.


basically you have got it nailed.

Just take a higher dose next time. Sounds like a near perfect first try.

Also, to try and relax take some weed before the trip !

Since you asked for advice, I'd say relax. You have the whole rest of your life to take any particular journey.

As you get used to what happens, you're more prepared to go deeper. If you take in a large enough amount, it's not so much that you have to let go because you're holding yourself back, it's more that you really should let go because you really have no choice in the matter at this point!

Words of wisdom from this site that have helped me the most are:

1. Don't worry, no matter how amazing this might seem, you do get to go back to your body.
2. Prepare for one wild ride.

Sorry, my PC crashed while I was writing this story so I had so start it all over again. Obviuosly I forgot some things as i rewrote it.
I was meditating beforehand to calm myself down. I was pretty relaxed when I started vaping (low heart rate, etc.).

Yeah, maybe it's really just as simple as that. The dose was too low. Next time I will dose a little higher and keep on dosing higher until I manage to break through.
I wasn't afraid of not getting back to my body. Actually I couldn't imagine worrying about this, simply because I am not afraid of death. I am confident that it doesn't end with dying. I think of life more of beeing a process of development which one has to undergo until he will become one with god / the universe / whatever you want to call it.
So even if I get to the point of concerning if I am dying right now or maybe even if I am already dead, I don't expect to panic or feel regret. It's not like I had a deathwish. It's just like I said, I think of life being a development process. I live to evolve. If I am not ready for what will be next, I think I will be reborn to fulfill this process of evolving, until I am ready to ascent.

Well I didn't plan on going this deep on my believes. I just wanted to explain why I am not concerned about not getting back to my body. If this was going to happen, well then shall be it.

To the other point. I heard that I should expect what is impossible to imagine. Even if you expect it you will still be blown away, once you experience it.
But I will keep trying. I want to know it, want to see it and want to hear what they want to tell me.

Thanks to all of you answering and trying to provide support!

I was thinking about trying it again this morning. Even though I would have prefered to, I decided against it. Maybe I will try it tomorrow, otherwise which is more likely I will come back in a couple of weeks. It's just that I have to go to the hospital on monday, and I would have loved to use the time after my surgery to think about the things I had seen and heard without too much distraction due to working or studying or all the other distractions one is conquering on a daily basis.

Hi, great report.
It feels so weird to me at this point looking back on other peoples first times, I waited 14 years to find DMT and I really wasn't sure whether I would find the guts to do it once I found it. But I did and I love it and have zero regrets. I only tried it for the first time about 2 weeks ago (I really need to remember the date) aha I just did a bit of digging around and found the date to be April 15th, brilliant.
Anyway I've done it too many times since, not out of greed or anything, it's just that several of my friends wanted to get on it (one friend at a time on different days) but they all wanted me to go first so they could watch and then once I've had that one (I usually chicken out a little on the first and realize I should have taken more) I will hit it a couple more times until I get that big one I was after.
It's funny now how I think I'm getting sort of experienced with it already. I have no fear with DMT, I just get a little nervous on the first hit because it is so crazy powerful when it sends you off. I need to get over this and just go big first time in the future.
Now that I've determined that I've had breakthroughs I can say that it's not quite so easily definable as some would lead you to believe. I came out of it knowing I'd broken through but as time passed I began to doubt, but after a little advice on here I'm quite sure that I did.
Happy to have another one join the rest of us and I'm super happy that I'm already on the list and no longer waiting to find out what it's like.
You're completely right that the feeling and experience is totally indescribable and it's barely even possible to recall exactly what happened, you sort of know what the shapes looked like but they're not explainable in our 3 dimensional reality and almost impossible to even conjour up the image, just a simplified version. It has to be the most frustrating part of DMT. But no-one will ever know by word of mouth what it's like to experience, they can only see for themselves, then they find themselves with our little conundrum.
Anyway, good luck with your future journeys, I hope you have a great ride

Peace

PS The machine is the one to use. So effective and easy to breakthrough, the only thing that stops you breaking through is either dose or apprehension and chickening out (from my experience) but I think I'll always want a breakthrough after what I've experienced. The entities I met with were such a curious and playful bunch, I felt safe and wanted and very interesting to them. I want to keep going back to their playground. Though it looks different to me on every breakthrough, that's what keeps it exciting, you never know what you will get.
I think the best way I can help you to determine whether or not you've broken through is upon your return you're completely astonished, you keep laughing about it as you remember bits and pieces.
I had something else to say but I forget.

Good luck and I look forward to reading about your successful breakthrough.

By the way, try this track for a truly amazing experience, press play and immediately begin to light the machine. The music guides you perfectly through the trip and you begin to come round at the most perfect part of the track, it's like rebirth. It kind of goes airy and still for a few seconds, then the music starts to build again very slowly and this is exactly when my awareness starts to return. I use this 90% of the time and I've had the best experiences to this track. Give it a listen beforehand if you like

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CeBw_atUkoo

Unless of course you prefer silence or even a different style, but I still urge you to give it a go and if you do please let me know how it went, how it felt what happened

Sorry I keep remembering things to add, can I also recommend Holocene by Bon Iver
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWcyIpul8OE
Abeautiful sound to go off to. But still my favourite for a meaningful experience is the native American track mentioned above

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I thought about trying again tomorrow maybe with a higher dose. After 24 hours the tolerance should be back to normal as far as I know.




I think you do not have to wait so long to dose again. In Dr. Strassman's tolerance study he administered four consecutive high doses, all in the same day. Of the trip reports he published, many of the volunteers said the fourth dose was the most rewarding. Four high doses in a day seems exhausting to me. I've done 3 skydives in a day once, the fourth was just a little too much for me. It seems comparable to me. Have fun exploring.

The native american is really nice. I think I will have this playing at some point in the future while going on the journey. For the first time I chose not to listen to any music and also i shut my windows close to keep any distractions away. But I am pretty sure I will use this beatiful music for a trip aswell in the future. Thank you for posting it!

Yeah right I remember now. It was just that the guy who I got the dmt from told me to wait for about 24 hours for the next trip after smoking. But you are right. In the dmt experiment they got up to four high doses on the same day. Hmm maybe I'll give it another shot tonight or tomorrow in the morning. On the other hand I can also go for it after i recovered from my surgery. We'll see.

Do you smoke your dmt alone or do you have any trip sitter who will take your machine / pipe / smoking device from you? For my first trip I asked my girlfriend to stay and take my machine upon hearing that it is possible that I would not be able to set it back after the dmt kicks in. Has anybody ever been at the point where he couldn't put his machine away before drifting away?