Dear fellow Nexians,

I have been rather new to Cactus, progressing rather slowly with this amazing (!) entheogen. I have been extracting mescaline from Peruvian Torch myself, always ending up with very light-tan mescaline HCL (tripple washed with Acetone, then tripple-washed with ISO...)

I thought I have been rather sensitive to mescaline, as I can definitely feel the effects at much less than 100mg dose (which I learned is generally considered the "threshold dose". My previous experiences have been with 150mg, 250mg, 300mg, 350mg, and 400mg. About a week ago, I decided to go for 500mg. And let me tell you: I was quite glad I had prepared the set+setting really well beforehand (sticking "DON´T GO OUT!" note at my door, etc.)

I will not go much into detail here, but it has been one of my most intense entheogenic/intellectual experiences so far... Why am I using the word "intellectual" here? My previous experiences with Mushrooms, DMT, Aya/Pharma, and Salvia Divinorum have always offered me very intense visionary experiences. But with 500mg of mescaline... I had absolutely no visions (!), but... how to describe it... absolutely clear headspace able to think deeper then ever... able to clearly analyze and de-construct everything, even its own "conditions of possibility" (to annoy you with I.Kant´s phrase), to finally leave me... with absolutely nothing solid to stand on. Everything collapsed down and lost its previously solid foundations, leaving me... with nothing to (re)construct my identity around. Seriously: these 6+ hours of "I have gone completely mad and will never come back again, period." belongs to the most intense and most valuable experiences in my life.

After a week or so, I still have been "recovering" from that ego-shattering experience (I am not going to repeat this very soon, trust me). While returning to the commonsensual reality, I have been puzzled by a few questions, hoping to get some insight or a hint from you

- What puzzles me probably most is the "absence" of visuals/visions even at the 500mg level (cognitive effects being rather overwhelming, however!)... At "t + 6 hours" I started to see some not too distinct patterns on the floor/walls/lawn outside, but nothing "serious"; I would compare these OEVs to my normal 2g Mushroom dose... So my question is: what is 500mg of mescaline to you? Do you also "miss" the visuals? How visual is mescaline for you at which dose-level?

- I have no idea how to understand my "lack of visuals" with mescaline. I have been "visually" rather quite sensitive to other entheogens, such as Mushrooms (3,5 grams in silent darkness send me easilly to the DMT space), or Pharma (70mg orally send me ´there´ also quite reliably). Yet I seem to be visually rather resistant to mescaline... Would you have any explanation for this?

Mescaline IME is less 'visual' and more 'visionary'. Not like LSD tracers or DMT hyperspace, but more like the narrative idea-space of dreams.

Have you tried a full spectrum tea instead of the extract?
The other alkaloids seem to help the visuals quite a bit for some people

No, I have not yet. I have been thinking, however, how to establish my dose for dried cactus...

Mescaline seems to affect people differently, and SWIM has even had different effects on different occassions with similar dosages, it is very strange.

The past few experiences of around 400mg I have found mescaline increadibly visual.. rainbow oil pantings and fractals, amazing. However, last year I had experiences of 200, 500, 750mg mesc with little visual effects besides colors brightening and mild rainbows, even though the effects were very strong. One friend had no visuals on an occassion while the other had great visions with the same dose.

Before the past few recent experiences though SWIM had some very visual 25I, and I noticed the mescaline visuals seemed to mimic the 25I visions it seemed, only much brighter and more colorful. Perhaps the 25I somehow "unlocked" the visual power of the mescaline since they were taken only a few weeks appart... Perhaps it is becuase of brain chemistry and the fact that I now regularly take Super B Complex, more brain nutrients to create visions. Maybe mescaline has a spirit of its own and chooses when to reveal its beauty if the individual is deserving. Lol I am unsure.