After a few failed attempts at breaking through SWIM had no expectations of a full on trip. In fact he was just smoking to get the resin out of the bottom of his bowl. Once he noticed the thick smoke forming he realized he was going all in. The vibrations and pressure began to grow and he hear the familiar sound of noises he knew were there but too low or high to hear. He remembers telling himself to close his eyes but he saw nothing behind them. When they opened he was brought to a strange sight.
He no longer recognized his limbs as his own. His right side was protruding from the side of his vision like a marionette being controlled by its own free will as was the right side. The middle of his being was his own shattered mind that no longer contained himself but was occupied by four of more different voices (all of people he knows which seemed randomly chosen) and every time he had a thought it was said by one of the people. He realized all his thoughts were just things other people had said to him that day cut and pasted to fit the situation. It was the strangest and most disconnected feeling ever. Much different from the egoloss obtained through Acid where he was unable to put meaning and objects together. It was as if every section of his being was severed and floating with a will of its own.
He remembered trying to find his center and ending up in his pineal gland, but along with him was the strong thought that he shouldn't be experiencing this and that it was forbidden knowledge. actually the thought was sung to him from existence or something hiding behind it. He listened for a second then brushed it away. He always has that thought on drugs and has had experience with panic attack and is well accustomed to controlling them. Though the feeling of a group of beings surrounding him is always there. He then continued to be amazed at his first Major DMT experience for 2 or 3 minutes. The only other thing SWIM remembers is the feeling of being drenched in water (of course when sober he found out he was bone dry)