Hi everyone, this is my first post describing my first three acacia(first dmt) trips that took place in the span of a week and a half. I am still trying to make sense of each(so hopefully you can help me), especially the third, and I feel as if all three are linked to each other. Visions for all three can be described as patterns made up of white light with rainbow/color on edges with open eyes in dark room, and full color hallucinations with eyes closed. Keep in mind I forget most of the visions but a few really stuck out. I wouldn't be really be describing them but I feel as if they are almost "real" or something and belong to a particular realm/frequency that I tuned into.
All three, lasted: 4 hours intense, 2 hours coming down
trip 1: 15g acacia, ~3g rue -- Slight open eye visuals of patterns in dark room(forget their nature). Strong CEV's. Felt as if I was in another realm. A couple CEV's I distinctly remember include a deep whitish-blue Kraken held in a cylindrical tank with greenish water that must have been at least a hundred foot high. The Kraken was suspended in the water and held by chains on each of its tentacles. Another(when i really sunk into the experience/meditated) was a pair of glaring eyes and a face that took up my vision that was glowing red(i think there was fire in the background) and his eyes just said "why the hell are you peeking in here", demon? Others CEV's included visions of complex building structures. This was my first dmt experience and I felt like I entered some kind of archetypal/fantasy realm.
trip 2: 20g acacia, ~3g rue -- very clear open eye visuals in dark room of mostly Aztec/Mayan geometry(Sacred Geometry?), same with closed eye. One of the CEV's that stuck out was about for glowing green old men with beards in a row blowing white smoke in turn to create a radial geometric (Aztec-Like) pattern also growing green as a gift for me. I tried to take these hallucinations with me at times but realized I already have them since I experienced them. Also had CEV's of space, structures, etc. During this experience a few times my mind went back in time while i was listening to music and a 4 second loop of the song would repeat like 5 times before continuing(also happened watching a video, repeated itself). One last OEV i remember is the patterns on the ceiling got more alien and glowed pink and I was able to "peak through"/half see a feminine alien presence and she was slightly rocking my room back and forth as if it was a crib. I felt as if this(aside from the alien) was the ancestral/spirit realm.
trip 3: 40g acacia ~3-4g rue -- Was coming up on the acacia, had not purged yet. I could tell this was going to be intense, weather channel said things like "this might not be a smooth trip" and "this might be a long trip" and "yeah it was a really intense experience", all part of the show but said just as my awareness was paying attention to it. So I'm about to purge and this thought comes into my brain(from some outside source) asking "are you ready for this experience" and i replied with my thoughts "yeah as soon as I throw up I'll be good". Experience: OEV's consisted of constant shards of white light glowing and fading, dots that looked like stars, and endless visions of some kind of alien geometric patterns(definitely, definitely not human) which I can't even recall or explain but they were organic and alien in nature. My conclusion is that these patterns were either some kind of universal language or universal means of communication between all planetary entities or they belonged to a specific alien race/dimension. During the last two experiences I would put myself into trances with ease and be able to semi-navigate. I also had an ancient language at the tip of my tongue during all three experiences that I used in this one to successfully alter the visions/attempt to communicate, phrases like anna-why-et-asay whispered slowly. I don't think it matters what the words are as long as they aren't english and you put your intention behind/into the words. Side note: During a mushroom trip at a friends house I was looking for food in his fridge and a portebella mushroom sort of channeled these ancient words through me(and I chose them to eat), I thought this was silly later but this sort of thing is definitely profound. CEV's are hard to remember but there were many symbols that definitely weren't human and many cosmic/divine orbs of geometrical light, brief visions of space, and other things I can't recall. Some sort of alien/cosmic realm? I did a have very brief CEV of a green goddess /entity.
Conclusion: During all three trips I feel like I have gained 100 years of wisdom and experience and have done more/dealt with more issues/transformed spiritually during these three trips than all my previous combined. I also had the feeling that I might be a shaman, maybe from a previous life(I think I had a momentary glimpse of a previous life), or maybe a majority of psychedelically inclined people can be considered shamans. I was always scared of "freaking out" but these entheogens seem so natural and easy to deal with(so far) if your just open to the experience and give yourself fully. A few insights confirmed: I believe everyone has some sort of cosmic/divine path that leads back to the source that I got a glimpse of in trip 3, not sure if you can stray from the path or if it is predetermined. Have experienced a lot of synchronicity in the past 6 months. Starting to believe in re-incarnation. Had a feeling that I had been to this place before in trip 3. What concerns me is the nature of the alien OEVs experienced in trip 3. I forget them for the most part but I think some were web-like and organic/seemed to be living themselves.