Hi there StupiFried
Welcome to the Nexus - thank you for your post.
StupiFried wrote:I've only got ahold of DMT once in my life, and i've never really had anybody to talk about it with who didn't just think i was a nut, so maybe this is the place for me, it'll be short n sweet but i want some feedback and maybe answers from people who care to do so.
I smoked a little bit, it wasn't a large dose at all, and what i first realized is that everything i looked at was made up of little elves, it was as if the atoms that make everything up were little elves, and those elves were made up of other elves and so on and so on, there was so much going on inside every inanimate object in my room..
I have found the DMT experience to be inherently fractal in nature, as well as rapidly changing. Your experience shouted "DMT!" to me.
StupiFried wrote:
This was probably 2-3 years ago and i just today google searched "Big door DMT" which brought me to this site where another member discussed the same thing, what is this door? who was the janitor? should i have went through the door? lol, it was such a real experience that it still sticks out in my head.
I have heard of DMT elves but is this how other people see them? i had a fan in my window and the entire fan was made up of elves and the deeper you looked the more elves there were...
A hardcore breakthrough may have awaited you behind the door. The janitor was just an entity - it's amazing the variety they can take.
StupiFried wrote:
is there anything to any of this or was i just really high?
Both. Most of us Nexians love science and are relatively rational - we know that when we take a large dose of DMT into our systems quickly it can destroy all our perceptions. And yet we wonder because these experiences are so detailed and fantastic it can be daunting to understand or believe that they are coming from one mind, the trippers'. DMT has a reputation for producing visuals that are "more real than real," which makes for memorable experiences and at times poignent memories, both of which you seem to enjoy.
I do hope you will consider writing a formal Introduction Essay - I for one would love to learn more about you.
All I've done here is all anyone can do - expressed personal opinions. It is up to you to figure out what it means to you.
Thanks again for this post.
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