Hello friends, for the past year I have really been in a rut of sorts.

It all started when I started having doubts with my job, it was a really good job; very easy work with the highest pay I have ever made. The problem was that I was feeling a conflict within myself about the type of work I was doing. Let's just say I had a moral dilemma. The more I thought about it coupled with the desire to get out of my small home town in search of new and more fulfilling experiences for myself and my family exacerbated this dilemma and I ended up leaving the job and blindly moving to the city.

I have had quite a time trying to find a job here surprisingly, but I have a feeling (maybe an irrational one) that there is something in store for me and the universe is biding it's time. Ever since leaving my job and moving, I have been searching out a positive and fulfilling way of life. I have spent a lot of time looking for jobs that fit this mold and have found nothing.

It seems that everything I find that appeals to me is volunteer work, while I would love to volunteer at some of these places I unfortunately have to find a way to provide for my family first. I am receiving unemployment but not for long, so I have also been applying for many other jobs that are far less in line with my goals.

This is where the universe comes in. I have had a few calls and interviews but somehow things don't work out and they end up going nowhere, and it isn't because I'm bombing the interviews either . It sounds odd, but I have always been able to pick up on which circumstances were going to play out for me and which weren't. For example, I have moved houses many times and each time I go through the process of applying for houses and what not, I always know the house I will be moving into as soon as I see it. Anyway, lately I have just felt like I am going around and that "eureka" moment isn't coming, every job just feels wrong and every road leads nowhere.

So after all that, I just want to know if anyone has some resources or even ideas of positive or "fulfilling" work or SOMETHING I can do to make a difference while still being able to make ends meet.

By positive and fulfilling I mean anything from organic farming to improving my community, really anything that isn't contributing to the perversion of our world.

Loves.

Erm...

i'm not quite sure what you're asking, creative ways to get by? or creative ways to make the world a better place? or creative ways to mix the two?

does your town have a place where day laborers stand out for work? if not you could go to your local hardware store or home depot and offer your assistance to people that seem to be working on jobs etc.

you could also guerilla grow everything from tomatoes to weed in all places public and not so public.

did i understand you right wax?

Wax, FYI Pandora's comments were about a post that I subsequently removed... Sorry about any confusion.

My one suggestion is that, if you have serious downtime, focus on polishing your digital art skills- which I believe are very promising- and consider trying freelance design work. This is a wide-open field, and there are a lot of ways to market yourself. You could do anything from web design to album covers to book design. All you need is to expand your portfolio a little and create some kind of online presentation for yourself. Meantime, keep up the job search... But if you have any big chunks of spare time on your hands, your art could be your ace in the hole.