I had my first breakthrough with DMT a few days ago and after going over it again and again I guess I should share it. Craziest thing I've ever experienced for sure. I'm well versed with LSD and Psilocybin but in no way did either of those help me in this space. The first time I did DMT I was with a friend and we each had a go. He went first and had a difficult time in between here and hyperspace, not breaking through but feeling incredibly different. He was nervous for me to try it, but I was confident. My experience with 2 large hits was amazing. I saw beautiful visions behind my closed eyes and when I opened them I would see the room but with beautiful animations attached to it. I was being communicated love so intensely that it was to the point of feeling like being communicated with erotic sex. I Laughed and was in absolute bliss for about 5 minutes. It was certainly a positive experience and made me headstrong to try it again. The second time I did it I took 3 massive hits BY MYSELF.
I quickly realized that I was in for something really fucking powerful. Those beautiful visuals that I adored so much on the first trip quickly came crashing into my living room in front of my open eyes. what I was witnessing was so unbelievably shocking that I literally felt like I was rapidly regressing to an infant child. I saw these crazy 3 dimensional light-bodies that were moving all around the room incredibly fast. Mind you my living room no longer was recognizable, but rather seemed like a lightspeed circus tent flying by and wirling around me. I didn't know if my eyes were open or closed because I felt I could see in all directions around my head. This all took place within the span of about 10 seconds. I became very worried about my physical body because I could only conclude that I was dying. I forgot about the DMT, and pretty much everything I ever knew for my entire life. I was absolutely stripped of my ego. I stood up and walked to the nearby table to grab my phone because I felt that I needed help. It felt like it took HOURS to do this. Time felt that it was moving so slow, and Im not going to explain how, but I felt that I was seeing different dimensions of time in front of me, as if it were being projected in frames that took up my field of view. once the phone was in my hand I had no idea of how to operate it. I was in a state of intense worry and confusion. It was at this time that I for some reason left my house in my underwear and walked to my hammock in the front yard and climbed into it, also feeling like this was an endless voyage that took eons to finish.
I didn't know anything about the hammock when I got to it, but somehow stumbled into it and tried to get myself situated. Once again, everything in front of me in the real world was not registering at all. It was as if I was moving purely from instinct that I didn't understand. Im obviously leaving some details out, but basically I had gotten myself into the hammock very awkwardly and my head was uncomfortably hanging off the side, the hammock was tight against my throat. I was convinced at this point that I had accidentally killed myself. This was the best part of the trip, because what happened was that I again saw all black (it was midnight) but these light bodies had come back into my field of view. They were applauding and congratulating me on accepting my death. It was like I had paid my dues to them. I felt such a feeling of love and happiness that this was what had come after death. This was about 3 minutes into the trip. They beings communicated with emotion but also with visual cues. As if they had faces and were winking at me. the intelligence had a kind of joyous, slightly crazy, and humorous personality. Like if it wanted to you know it could make you go absolutely insane and go through enormous pain, but it wont likely do that. hopefully. Anyway, I went through probably the most intense and meaningful 30 seconds of my life when I realized that I actually wasn't dead and I could live again and go on with my life if I want. Seriously, Im pretty sure that this was the most important and climactic point of my life, even though I can barely remember it now. I layed in the hammock, dead, but knowing that I would come back to life. I started slowly recognizing my surroundings and where I was, then who I was. The visuals were at this point similar to a high dose of shrooms, but to me the trip was over because I pieced back together by some miracle. Seriously, the most shocking thing about this experience was how my mind could so quickly go back to normal after that. Adrenaline pumped through my viens for about 20 minutes as a shook and screamed and laughed in my house alone for about 20 minutes.