WOW WOW WOW. Alright I have got to say what I expected wasn't anything compared to what happened this was waaaaay more intense my mind has been blown, here's what I remember:
So I grabbed my extraction from the freezer and did my thing got 30mg of crystals (very low yield...) decided to smoke all of it. So i grabbed my bong put 3 mesh screens on it and put the DMT on it. I didn't have any weed to sandwich it with so with the lighter i slowly tried to melt them and kept inhaling. I was a little confused because I didn't get any smoke but the crystals dissolved.
Anyway I decided screw it may as well just light the mesh. So I did and bam white smoke i start inhaling didn't burn at all went very smoothly. i hold it for 5 seconds in one big rip.. Did i do it ri.. BAM it hits me! I was not expecting THAT (if you smoked it you know what i mean) I exhale because of whats happening (wish i held it in!) My ego is being ripped apart. My mind that never stays quiet feels like all my problems are draining from it like someone flushing a toilet. I turn to my bed everything is going crazy my ears are ringing or something i crawl into it as much as i can.. I turn around The open eye visuals were AMAZING! Who am I? What's happening? I'm hearing a bunch of talking I can't understand, I'm dissolving into my bed everything is beautiful.
My monitor is open with my background showing, which is my avatar here and It's coming alive with colors the woman starts telling me to let go everything is going to be okay, close your eyes. I just couldn't do it what I'm seeing is blowing my mind then things start to get into a bad vibe and dark I don't remember what i saw that did it but I I finally manage to close my eyes and see a very faint family waving goodbye to me. I become overjoyed it felt like i seen these people before I wave back with a huge smile.. I'm starting to come down and my sister is over so i jump out of bed still kinda tripping. Practically yelling what i just saw in with the biggest smile on my face. Then i go for a walk.
After this it feels like all my old problems don't matter at all like i hit a reset button its been over 6 hours since my trip and i still feel great! well as much as seroquel XR will let me feel I'm on 150mg going up to 300mg tonight I think it might of made my trip a little numbed down on the emotions. Next time I will make sure to close my eyes I probably missed out on a lot of things but even with my eyes open this was a great experience that i will never forget even though it wasn't a breakthrough I think? Can't wait to try it again in the future.
Next time I will: close my eyes the entire time and close the curtains I think there was a bit too much light.
Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.