First of all, i haven't been to the nexus in a long time and I just want to say that i absolutely love the changes to the site. This place is just really pleasant to look at and browse.
That being said, here is my trip report on what was by far the strongest DMT experience i've had so far (bear in mind it is only the third).
First, I lit some incense and put on one of my favorite albums, prospect hummer by animal collective. It is very soothing for me, and really helped calm me down as I attempted to prepare myself mentally for what was to come. i made Syrian Rue tea and drank it. A half hour later i smoked half a bowl of Syrian rue, leaving enough to serve as a base for the sandwiching of the DMT. After smoking the rue, I turned off the light music I had playing and meditated on what my purpose in smoking this DMT was, which is to find some sort of guidance, as lately i have really been questioning myself and what I want to do with my time on this crazy planet. I was also hoping for some help in moving beyond my recent separation from a girl that i was crazy in love with, only to have her choose another guy over me.
I sprinkled the rest of my DMT on top of the rue base (who knows how much it was), and then covered that with some weed. One last mental preparation as i clarified what i wanted. That feeling is already here, the feeling that something big is happening, the anxiety that comes in my opinion as a sort of offering and a show of respect to this incredible chemical.
Then, the first toke. I took a large hit and held it in for at least 20 seconds, by the time i exhaled my vision was already pretty distorted, patterns were emerging from my walls and in general everything was pretty warped. After the second hit things got really strong and it was hard to imagine taking a third toke. But, after all i've read i realized that i had to take the third hit. I did so and as i exhaled i closed my eyes. What came next was absolutely incredible.
It was nothing like i expected, which, paradoxically is kind of what i expected. Anyways, the visuals were stronger than anything i had ever experienced, so much color streaming through my vision, it was as if i was in a large space, and all these amazing patterns were appearing and changing shape and bursting with color. One specific visual i remember was of myself, curled up in my bed (as i was) but everything except for me was blue with white outlines, while i was this bright yellow/orange color. There was this thread extending from the back of my head that, as my vision zoomed out, showed that i was connected to all these people by these same threads. In addition, every question that i had been thinking about lately came to me, and instantly the answers were granted to me from some place deep within. Now i know that i want to harness this ability and become even more in tune with this.
The actual emotional sensations were so beautiful as well, it was so loving and i truly felt and still feel the connection to every other being that i had been searching for. Just the beauty of this whole experience has stuck with me, and i have taken away from it that i need to go out of my way to be as kind and helpful to others as i possibly can.