Yesterday was just so immensely perfect, it was exactly what I have been anticipating in the back of my mind for about 3 weeks day in and day out. For the first time since I was sixteen years old, I took a euphoric ride on the wings of DMT. When I was younger something must have went wrong, because that experience was so uncomparable to the events that took place in the hyperspace of my subconscious yesterday.

I had acquired a few doses three weeks prior, and hadn't stopped thinking about them since. My friend, whom I will not name, invited me to his house in the rural area where I grew up but haven't visited in a few months. As we pulled up, another friend with us and a few friends in a car behind us that came along to smoke some blunts with us for one of their birthdays, the excitement was coursing through me, though i tried to maintain a calm state of mind. We got out of the car and walked through his backyard to a large pond that sits on his property. It was perfect.

We all sat down on the ground together by the pond. The spot i chose was like mother natures version of a lounge chair. A small slope of dirt that raised up about eight to ten inches and the plateau'd, with tree limbs hanging slightly above my head. It was just amazing, the pond in front me, a medium embankment with a lot of flowers and overgrown grass and weeds n such. We rolled some blunts and smoked and talked casually. I was just so ready, it was time.

I loaded a 50 mg dose of Spice for myself. As I began to draw that first pull, the feeling in my chest was just unexplainable, I held, and let it out with such a satiafactory exhale, as the visuals slowly crept in I repeated this process three more times, and by the end of the fourth pull.... Awestruck. I effortlessly dropped the lighter and smoking device as I felt a look of sheeeer astonishment slowly overtake my face. The pond looked as if a million raindrops landed at once but with no splash. I looked to the embankment and the grass and flowers began to curl and contort until the entire embankment looked like some sort of friendly cartoon alligators face, still resembling vegetation though. As I looked to the sky, and took the first breath i can remember, it was the deepest, most satisfying breath I have ever experienced, I felt as if I was breathing in existance, if that makes sense. Still glaring into the sky i exhaled and what I saw was godly to say the least. When I blew the breath out it was as if the clouds were thrown into a whirlwind by the oxygen I released from my mouth. I said one word, in the happiest tone any of my friends had ever heard "WHOA!!"

These visuals persisted and i sat quiet, and every breath I took was as big and beautiful as before, if not more so. The feelings of these breaths reminded me of something. Right now is all you have, this exact second. You can never have the past again, and the future is not even close to guaranteed. This exact moment in time is ALL YOU HAVE. So i slowly turned to a close friend and said with no thought, like my brain was speaking for me. "You have to let go of the past, and forget about the future... To be the most present." His reaction was awesome, he just says "wow man, that's heavy. That's the deepest thing ive ever heard in one sentence."

They told me I went on a philosophical rant at this point, but I can't recollect everything i said and this post is getting lengthy. I know this trip was not a full breakthrough but it didn't matter, it was the most amazing and heartwarming experience of my life to date, and I'm so thankful for it.

I hope someone finds happiness in this documentation. Thanks for taking the time to read this and i wish you all well. Peace Love and Happy Travels. thEorEtical.

Any feedback or relations you can make would be intriguing to me, I just thought I would add that. I love hearing peoples thoughts on my endeavors and writings.

I heart this.

Sometimes those doses at less than breakthrough are just as satisfying, if not more. I love feeling awestruck and enchanted, but at much higher doses it becomes increasingly more difficult to decipher the introspection that occurs as opposed to smaller amounts where you can formulate (at least better than a hyperspace visit) the process into a format that's understood by others.

It's so intriguing how much you want to share every detail with someone after you've done it... Its like getting validation that it was REAL. Sometimes its nice knowing that although content was different, context is the same.

Anyway, I'm all about sub-breakthrough doses. It sounds like you had an amazing one!

50mg and no breakthrough? I never did straight DMT before but isn't that considered a high dose?

Living in the present is the best advice ever. I constantly try to remind myself! Thanks for reminding me to remind myself. lol.

Yeah I know that 50 mg is a high dose, a breakthrough dose persay, but with it being on chore boy and the effects overtaking me like that for the first time, my four pulls from it probably did not get it all, my friend who owns the piece I packed it in said he took a few good pulls later on after I went home and had a gnarly ride from it. So I'm sure that's the case, I probably got a good half if not a little more.

Every breath is a miracle
We often forget about today

You have been shown what we often overlook. Life is precious...

I think it was a breakthrough - it doesn't have to be extremely visual, the message is important.

I interviewed an American nature writer - Barry Lopez - the other day. He's been to 70 countries, taken part in all sorts of rituals, and he said that there is one thing in common between all religions - The Holy Breath. Prana, The Holy Ghost, Aloha, Nilchi...

He told me the native Hawaiians live with a sense of aloha. The word "aloha" consists of two parts. "Alo" means to share and "ha" means to breathe. Aloha means to share breath, and more precisely to share the breath of life. Native Hawaiians often refer to Westerners as haole. The word "haole" also consists of two parts. "Ha", as we have learned, means breath and "ole" means without. In short, the native Hawaiians see Westerners as being people who are breathless. This is a fundamental difference between the Western culture and the Hawaiian culture. This difference has resulted in, and continues to result in, many confrontations among those who currently make Hawaii their home.

In one of Barry's stories he speaks about the Holy Spirit Wind which to the Navajo steadies us in the world and allows us to move through it gracefully. Their word for it is Nilchi'i. Among the complexities of its translation into English is “the Wind that is Creation's first food, the source of all motion and change, giving life to everything, including the mountains and water.” It is the underlying force that unifies everything and the means of communication between all elements of the natural world. He says: “Other native North American peoples have refined similar ideas; but the Navajo conception is particularly successful in relating the idea of the individual to the concept of a stable society...through Nilchi'i, individuals participate in graces or powers that surpass these of the individual...those graces or powers keep one secure in the world.”

Wow autumnsphere that's really heavy, I like that a lot. Thanks for sharing. Peace and Love.

Amazing report, I have experienced some of the same visuals you described and revelations on higher dose mushroom trips, really struck a bell with me.

If you were able to get that spice in in one shot it might have gone completely different

Was this the 2nd experience you have had with DMT?

I really liked the description here:



I look forward to hearing more from you.

^^^^ that is an awesome quote! just so relaxed and visual sounding that keeps getting better and better as you read through it! lovely...

Im glad that you guys found enjoyment in my experience, it was just so amazing, when I wrote about it I had to make sure it was worth reading. The last two comments really brightened my day, I love when someone can relate to or visualize what I try to describe. Thanks so much for the feedback.
Peace and Love.
thEorEtical



and skymotion to answer your question, urs this was my second experience with the spirit molecule. The first i was young and dumb and it wasn't memorable, i probably burnt it and wasted it back then, and I wasted a couple doses in an oil pipe before I finally got there with this experience. I did have plenty of experience with LSD when I was younger though, but its been quite some time.

That sounds like a beautiful experience! I hope I have an experience that profound and wonderful some day.



Well said. I'm saving that quote on my computer! I've heard countless variations of "living in the moment" thrown around, as I'm sure we all have, but the way you worded this really caught my attention, and I think this is something I'll enjoy pondering a bit.

Thank you for sharing your experience!

Edit: Also, thEorEtical, I like your avatar a lot!

Much appreciation Trilemma. In the moment, it was always like my mind was on its path, and I was just saying what it wanted me to say, haha.. and yeah i was happy when i found that avatar picture, thanks for the compliment. Good luck on your future journeys.
Peace and Love.
thEorEtical