well its been about a year now since ive visited the dome. I guess im not sure if ive had a "breakthru", so that means i probably have not, but it was intense and profound none the less.

The first time I put on Shpongle, Star Shpongled Banner first to set the mood. I listened to it while I took a few puffs on my bowl. Herb is very good at comforting me and provides slight releif to that anxiety feeling that I have accepted as something that is unavoidable and natural. The next song that came on was of course "A new way to say hooray". I let Terrence narrate my experience, taking (in his words) "let us assume a thrid toke.." My buddy took the peice from me as I sat back on the couch. What happened next is of course rediculous to try to explain but I will make an attempt. This first time what I saw seemed much more natural and familiar. I felt like I was sitting in the bottom of a giant bowl surrounded by beautiful and lush landscapes, mountains and waterfalls and such. I felt a female presence descend, moving with the music. First I only felt her in front of me but a moment later she was all around me, engulfing me. It was a motherly presence, it was very comforting and loving.

The following experiences were within 5-10 minutes of eachother, probably about a week or so after the first one. On one of the journeys I remember the colors and the feeling being very similar to Alex Grey's painting, Bardo Being. I felt as if I was in a small dome, entities were moving in and out of the dome almost like they were part of it and it almost felt like my eyes were the light source, wherever i would look seemed more illuminated than the rest of the dome.
I was doing this with my girlfriend who is not as experienced as I am with altered states, this was her fist time so naturally it freaked her out a bit. She told me that she thought it was a bad thing and that I shouldnt do it again. Now I was pretty sure at this point that it was her ego talking, mother culture wispering in her ear "your not supposed to go thru that door", but it still planted a small seed of fear in my mind and I think that had an influence (although not a negative one) on my next trip.
This time I saw the most detailed, vibrant, closed eye visuals I have ever seen. Again it is rediculous to try to explain this but I will try. It was like I was in a boat, there were pillars that came up out of the water and went up very high where they came together to form.. you guessed it! a dome lol. These pillars were beautiful, with (again in Mckennas words) geometric hallucinations, many differnt colors and what looked like fountains towards the top with an iridescent liquid cascading down the pillars and into the water that i was floating on. This liquid seemed to be the only light source and it was brilliant. This time was the only time that I did not see some kind of entity, but I felt their presence, I felt like if i turned around I would see one peeking out from behind a pillar or something. I think that maybe this is becuase they recognized my fear. I felt like they decided to back off a bit and let me take in the beauty of the place without scaring me or overwhelming me, who knows.


Breakthru? I guess I dont know yet, but it was the most profound experience of my life and more beautiful than anything I have ever seen or imagined.