I thought I would share this voyage with the Nexus, it was part of my documentation 6 months ago of my entheogen exploration I shared with close friends and family.

This is an account of my 4th breakthrough journey into the great beyond. What happened to me was the pinnacle of my present state of being, profound, metaphysical, esoteric all being part of it, yet none of it. I am going to try and explain this using words but I know it will be futile. One thing to note as I was venturing forth I had a primary question/intention in my mind that I wished to explore “Where is it I go to on DMT? What is Hyperspace?”… I will share my opinions at the end of my essay because I think this voyage granted me some answers to this question albeit cryptic as usual.

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Having broken through into the other side/hyperspace several times now, I know it can get deeper and deeper each time. I was a fool not to realize the unbound depth at which it could truly take me. So this last time I ripped a few good breaths, my fiance took the pipe from me, left the guest room and turned off the lights.
 
There was no tunnel this time; there was no sense of travel. The room disappeared and Hyperspace just unfolded all around me. I was sitting in a void of an intense abyss of eternal consciousness. It was beyond vivid and bright, my first thought was “how beautiful”. It was almost overwhelming like always I could sense far off somewhere my bodily vessel was breathing heavy and its heart was racing. I know this is normal so I thought “this is part of the separation, you know this, just relax and clear yourself”. I emptied my thoughts to nothing, better than any other time in my life.
 
What happened next was quite something, something I am still sorting out. Hyperspace started to take a form of sorts. Not just visual but of another consciousness starting to make contact with me. This consciousness was not only aware of me it seemed to read me to my core. It was reassuring me. “That’s good, clear yourself, this is the way”. It went on “It’s good that you now realize thinking in time here is meaningless”.
 
Then this is where shit started getting bizarre and deep. I have no idea how to describe this but this consciousness cannot simply be referred to as a being. It thought in a way no words I know can describe. Its thoughts where so complicated I could barely wrap my head around it. It just “IS”. This consciousness was referring to itself in the first person, 3rd person, 2 persona, me, everything, and everyone and yet nothing…. (I swear to GOD I have not lost my mind here!) There is no English word for it or many of the idea’s I have was shown in hyperspace like usual.
 
***For my own translation of this I will refer to this consciousness henceforth as IT, yet I realize this is quite simplified and insulting, or perhaps it is not. I will also refer to it as WE and THEY. Son of a bitch I doubt I can explain this in words…. Argh. ><***
 
IT went to analyze me, “WE know you are hungry for truth, but you must know that truth is not always what it seems?”

This gave me pause; I did not take this warning lightly. I was ready (or so I thought). I didn’t even have to project a thought that I was ready; THEY/IT just knew it when I made up my mind to proceed forward. Instantly the colorful abyss around me changed. THEY/IT, the consciousness separated into two, talked as two then joined back into one, then it split again. I was confused. Then it said “This is a glimpse of infinity!”  HOLY F**king shit I thought I was going to explode!!!! I field of view went to 360 degree’s at once, not only outward but inward (if that make sense). IT split into infinity. It was intense beyond all understanding. If I was still in my body I would be screaming and surely would have pissed myself. This infinite unfolding went on until I couldn’t take it anymore I knew I was reaching my limit, to go further would put me into Madness. I will not even attempt to describe what it looked like because every time I remember that part of it, my head starts hurting (for real!).
 
THEY/IT realized my limit and made it stop and I focused again at least in a direction of sorts I was comfortable with. THEY seemed like they anticipated my reaction. IT reassured me that most in my present state can not withstand that for much longer. “I can see why”. They reformed into what appeared a coherent consciousness for me to communicate with again.
 
If that wasn’t strange enough I started to get more bewildered in awe. IT started breaking apart into light and dark and then reforming again. It started sending thoughts at me very fast like: 
 
“WE are everything and nothing”
“WE are everyone and no one”
“WE are you and are not you”
“WE are alone and yet connected to all things”
“WE are without time, we are eternal”
“WE are infinite in all ways”
“WE are light and darkness”
“We are ONE”
… Many many more paradoxical sayings such as this…
 
This went on for a bit, much of it I forgot (or I deeply choose to forget some of it). It seemed like everything THEY said they would then contradict themselves. I started to realize this must be a part of infinity. Because if what IT said was true infinity is just not infinite in space and time but also in thought… well everything. They did say“WE are infinite in all ways”
 
Then IT said “You are so focused on pursuit of the light, yet part of the journey is to experience the darkness. To gain more understanding you must go through Darkness.”
 
I was like “WHAT!????” (My evangelical roots started creeping in I started thinking could this be some demonic trickery. This is all so bizarre and alien)
 
Then THEY/IT said “Don’t be ignorant. Darkness does not always mean Evil”
 
I was thinking “Really? Are you serious, I am supposed to experience darkness?”
 
They replied “If you want to understand and grow then yes”.
 
I took pause for a space, thought about it. I am already reeling from what just transpired. Then I thought, “Can I trust this? Is this a trick?”
I then thought I must continue on and see what else IT has to share. Why else am I am taking the DMT to explore past my bounds. I would not only betray myself but everything in my life if I started doubting now. If I die, I die.
 
Then IT definitely split into two very unique shifts in consciousness. The dark fractal vortex spiraled all around me and IT enveloped me, at least part of it, for I was aware the light side was still present too. I started feeling cold, emptiness, space, darkness, alone, sorrow, regret, misery... I realized that not all of darkness is evil. Space is not evil, emptiness is not evil. There are parts of darkness that we call “evil” at least in our human understanding of it but that is only a small part of it. One thing IT appeared to be correcting my basic understanding of Eternity and Everlasting. What they were showing me is Eternal and Everlasting mean two very different things.
 
This was all starting to get a bit much for me. I don’t remember how long I was at this or to what extent. THEY/IT started feeding into my head all sorts of strange signs, symbols, equations, colors, shapes and spaces (almost all of which I had no idea of what it meant).
 
THEY/IT took me back to the colorful neutral abyss (quite beautiful for being neutral).

After this onslaught of imagery and ideas I noticed a bright beam of light hitting my lower midsection. It almost seemed like something was cutting me. It felt like some medical procedure. It hurt! THATS IT I HAD ENOUGH. It was not a pleasant feeling to say the least and right in the middle of this procedure of sorts I slammed right back into my body/room.
 
I sat up from DMT induced trance and was like “What the hell just happened!!!”. I ran out of the room and called for my fiance. She was in our other bathroom and yelled at me “You are done already?”. I said “yah, I was out for a long while that time!” She said “No, you weren’t you were out for only 3 minutes!”... I was speechless... “GTFO...only 3 min!?”
 
… that was a lot to take in. If I wasn’t at this current stage in my life that experience would have broke me. I would have thought that experience pure madness otherwise. This pushed me to my limit of my core being to every facet of myself. It was so beautifully and terrifying at the same time.  Talk about true duality even the experience was a DUALITY…son of a bitch that was intense. I felt rebooted from my other breakthroughs…. This was a bigger REBOOT/Rebirth. I have come to realize from this experience there is a greatness out there that transcends the duality of this reality. Duality is just two parts of a whole.

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I mentioned in the beginning of this essay that I had big curiosity to the nature of Hyperspace. I believe I was given some answers to my question. At the time of this writing it is my opinion that I believe Hyperspace is the divine consciousness. It is us and we are it. We are all one yet separate. The Rosicrucian’s believe there is a plane of mind/thought that transcends the astral realms. It is my opinion that Hyperspace may be what they are referring too. An internet of everything, everything that ever was or is.Perhaps the Akashic records itself. This Hyperspace would connect all conscious beings, heck maybe all life and matter, not just in this realm but the realms beyond. Some of the things the entity spoke of would indeed support this theory if it to be true. I have an open mind though and I am not a shaman. Much more exploration and learning will need to be pursued.
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Interesting thing happened a week later. I realized were that beam of light was hitting me, it was in my Kidney. I had to have a kidney stone removed that following week. It makes me wonder if they were trying to show me, help me, or damage me? Who knows it could be just a coincidence.

seriously, what an awesome read=)
Thanks for posting

thank you for sharing your very wonderful and very personal experience--some wonderful lessons for integration I wish you the best in your spiritual growth

All the teaching you recieved
Seems quite fascinating and remarkable considering you had no Ayahuasca in the mix .
Wild stuff. Absolutely amazing .

I agree, it was almost too much teaching. Every damn time I take spice it gets so damn deep. I get paranoid now to even take it. My fiance gets fun, whimsical experiences. I hear her laughing a lot in our guest/spice room. Maybe I need to start having "FUN" intentions before I voyage, or no intentions at all.

Do you guys have intentions before using or do you 100% clear yourself with no intentions?

It would be interesting to try caapi vine tea before journeying see if its different .

I wish I could have the level of communication
Your speaking of . The forces I encounter never tell me anything no matter how hard I ask.

I also wish I could have light journeys again.

I need to foster a lighter attitude as well .
My journeys have gotten far to serious and weird . I,m actually on an extended break hoping that when I do finally go back things will be different.

Intention is important but somtimes has no relevence. I've been experiencing the same type of experience for years regardless of intention
Or attitude .

Good intention is always best but sometimes doesn't matter .

Amazing read, thanks for sharing with us