Once again astonished with this magic molecule we all write about.
Yesterday was I think my 5th trip and this is how it went:
Made some Syrian rue tea 1.5g, gave me a nice feeling like a light smoke of cannabis. I waited for half an hour, meditated for another half. “I’m gonna let go, I wont resist, I will remember, I WILL come back” was my short prayer.
I had ready my machine with 80mg of blue lotus 2:1 analog changa and the hole room set, low light, pillows, a blanket some water next to me, no music (cause I wanted the trip to be without any interference)
I had about 3 tokes, I could do no more because on the third I was already tripping hard. Decided to lie down. Soon I went to this place which was more like a room, very colorful (mostly red and blue) with cubes set one on the other seeming like a city but I don’t think It was a city. The air was full of numerous colored pieces of glass floating from left to the right and opposite. The most real, visual, colorful experience yet. I’m sure Syrian rue slowed it down extended the trip giving me access to explore more. I was like “let’s go and find some entities” . As I was searching around I saw that the pieces of glass as they eclipse one an other started to form faces. But they where only faces, some of them where funny .My audio was filled during the whole trip with something like Mors signals.
Without any doubt very pleasant that I decided to go for one more. Checked my machine and saw that my change was still looking fresh. “So let’s see what is left”. I smoke of the same batch. A small parameter that I must mention. Between the two trips I had a chat with my wife. At first I described her the experience, then had a little chat about our daughter’s very small little accident which was actually nothing to analyze any more. Then went and smoked.
Two tokes was all I could do cause this time I was tripping harder that the first . This time NOT a pleasant trip. Warp speed in a black tunnel with sparks of light around. Landed in a place full of fear. From my second toke I knew I was going to a voyage of fear and I remember my self questioning what am I afraid of. All I could see was these lines going from the grown to up. Looked like long pipes. I don’t know if It was I that made it happen but it was like I was going backwards like as if I was let to see the whole picture. It was a green hose!!! With plants all quite that same like very tall pointy grass coming from the ground . This grass was the tall pipes I thought I was seeing in the first place. For some reason I knew it was a place in my soul were all fears grow as … grass. Every grown tall plant was a big fear and every small germ was a small fear. Without any significant reason I had focused on a small germ which showed to be my little daughter’s little accident. THATS THE REASON of my fear!!! I was completely astonished but still in fear. Felt powerful enough to take action, “I’m going to blow this place up” I said. Who wants fear inside him. And tried to find a way to achieve the ruination of this place. I thought LOVE, what is best than love? I began to focus on my love to the ones a love most. Suddenly the ground between the plants started to get strokes of red like painted with a wide brush. For an instant I thought the plan was working but no matter how much I tried the ground absorbing the red brush strokes and turning black again. I felt tired and just sat on a corner knowing the only thing I could do was wait for the trip to pass over. I was defeated but still astonished, so much I couldn’t sleep till the early morning hours.
One is for sure Syrian rue tea is a must for every trip I’m going to have from now on.
I still have some doubt about if any of this is a breakthrough experience since I didn’t have brain cracking like once before (but then again had no visuals at all and couldn’t let go)and the sense of leaving my body. It was more like I was mind blasted to an other dimension. No entities at all, maybe because they knew that even if I saw them I wouldn’t really believe in them. You see I believe in only a few things and people in my life and I’m an atheist. Whell this is a questions for an other post I’ll set some time “How religion interferes tripping experience”. But for now please reply … Was it a breakthrough and if not am I ready for something heavier like a breakthrough?
Once again feel I want to thank ALL NEXIANS for helping me see some light through any post
It's amazing just to find out, so true and so clear that there is no good or bad, only love and fear and that is all we are messing with during our whole human history and WOW that was my first hit. A moment of freedom out of the ape's sealed skin.