PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: okay
(physical condition) Set: well
Setting (location): home
time of day: 2200
recent drug use: cannabis
last meal: Thai coconut soup t-4h

PARTICIPANT
Gender: m
body weight: 113kg
known sensitivities:
history of use: fairly experienced over intermittent use

BIOASSAY
Substance(s): DMT
Dose(s): ~30/mg
Method of administration: vaporized


Intensity (overall): 3
Evaluation / notes: Very positive

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 4 (0-4)
Implesantness: 1 (0-4)
Visual Intensity: 4 (0-4)
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 0
Afterglow: 3; uplifted mood and inner calm, 2+ days

REPORT

I was laying on my red sofa, one of the "safest" places for me in the whole world and I decided it would be good to make another attempt at visiting dmt land. I had been feeling down that day and I felt like I needed the insight that meditation, smoking a bowl, or chatting with friends could not provide.

I loaded a couple small piles of crystals, maybe 30mg+, and took a moment to center myself. My only real intent was to explore, to get a feel for the space again as it has been a couple of years until recently. My first hit was slow and held deep, on the exhale a pattern of burning/electric balls of light filled parts of my vision, looking more like something ON my eye than phosphene activity since they moved lazily with my eyes. I decided it was wise to take another toke, this one was taken faster and with a bit more intensity. As soon as I exhaled it all of the surfaces in the room seemed to flip over, and I was laying in a vast web of glittering purple jewels. After I took in my new surroundings, an electric-peach colored being came from the side and sat next to me on this Indras net.

The being was wholly benevolent and familiar - I did not recognize it in this form or in these circumstances, but it identified itself to me as the Archangel Anael (rules over venus), a being I have a very close connection to and one that I love dearly. Anael told me that it "Wanted to show me something" and directed my gaze towards my body. Strange, crystalline, geometrically complex boxes, moving like an animated tesseract floated up from different sections of my form. Anael opened a compartment in one of the boxes, and a memory played inside of it - this one, the memory of abuse and darkness in my childhood, the next had memories of my romantic relationships as an adult that have left their marks on my heart, etc. Basically, Anael was showing me the places in my energy body that I stored traumatic events. Now I was asked to move into each one and feel it, fully; terror, anger, sadness, fear, hurt, worry, all of it. Anael was there with me, so the task was merely unpleasant feeling as opposed to horrific. Then, I was given a command; "Now burn it", Anael told me, and it was as if some unknown faculty had awoken, some extra sense or ability, and I felt this bizarre energy move down my body to the "box" and set it all a light. We repeated this process 5 or 6 more times - It burned cleanly, and I could feel the most pleasurable, intense burning sensation on my body each time. Anael said "I love you" in that incredibly potent, trans-human understanding of love kinda way, and the trip ended quite abruptly, the comedown was more disorienting than psychedelic for sure.

I felt very...neutral inside. Slightly happy and peaceful, but where there were once excruciatingly painful memories that I simply avoid (we're talking the core issues here, the last few I have just not been able to deal with in my process of self-discovery and healing), there is something like a skeleton of a memory - all the details are there, but there is absolutely no emotion in them anymore. As far as I can tell, the emotional energy of the memories was simply burned away. I fell asleep awestruck and contented...such an odd mix, but thats dmt for you sometimes.

When I awoke the next morning, I was in the best spirits I had been in for ages and ages and that feeling has remained with me - not in the way that a psychedelic afterglow lingers, blissed out and hazy, it feels more like what occurs when you have a personal breakthrough or realization with a problem in life or with a counselor.

This is a very personal report, but I feel like sharing these experiences is positive no matter how deep, light, terrible or ecstatic they may be.


peace and love.

I've said it many times: this stuff is medicine of the highest order! Medicine for the brave too. Puts things in perspective; it's always nice to have an angel on your side

This is such a beautiful report <3

It's amazing that you have such a benevolent being taking care of you, Zuvuya42! DMT is indeed a very special medicine!!