Well, the Landotter is a little disappointed in himself. Planned my virgin launch for 5pm November 2. Thanks to all who gave advice on the setup and priming of my Machine... sadly, my own personal hardware (wetware?) was not up to the actual task, at least not initially.
Had no problem melting the spice onto/into the copper wire plug of the Machine: don't know what I was so worried about, really. It was very simple and obvious, I used quite a lot of spice, enough to cover a dime and it all just melted into the plug perfectly, although a small amount of it adhered to the glass.
It was my own nervousness and anticipation that prevented a breakthrough, really. The torch lighter produced lots of vapour, so much so that I got a little over-excited and drew in the smoke too fast, too hard. That's not entirely true, I did take a few gentle hits to start, just to get a taste, but when I didn't really feel anything from that I drew harder and thanks to my non-smoker, utterly virgin lungs I found it incredibly harsh and foreign and I coughed mightily. I've never been a good smoker. There was no holding the breath unless I took gentle sips off the vapour.
I got very nervous. As I held the small gulps, the vapour would disappear from the bottle and I would stress over getting it back. Then when I did get it back after a few seconds with the torch lighter again, I would breathe in too hard and start the coughing again. Turned into a vicious circle.
After maybe three or four hits, two of which were utterly wasted by coughing, I experienced the chrysanthemum effect. The speed with which this came on actually shocked me. I've never experienced anything that came on so fast! It was like "whoa whoa whoa whoa here it comes jaysus christ..." but then, because I had not gotten enough of it into my system it just faded away. It was like I'd walked right up to the door but did not open it.
I'm a little disappointed in myself.
So, I knew that I had to wait a while for the next try. At 7 I tried again but didn't get any further than the first time; in fact it felt as if I'd done better the first time.
I have some questions...
1) Timing the spice intake. I know I rushed the smoking, due to apprehension and general noobie-ness. I thought "shit! There's the vapour! I have to get as much of this into me in the shortest time possible!" but now I'm wondering how true that is. How much time can you allow between intakes of vapour? If you haven't broken through by the 3-minute mark, or the 5-minute mark, or the whenever-minute mark, can you break through at all or is it a wasted effort to continue?
2) Getting
huge hits. Really my problems started with the anxiously large draws of breath that brought a lot of smoke into contact with the back of my throat. But when I was taking small breaths and then following them with short inhales through the nose to push the vapour deeper into my lungs (as was suggested by someone here) I could feel it begin to work, could feel it building. Instead of taking 2 to 3 huge hits to acheive breakthrough, is it possible to just work away at it with several small hits? I mean, the whole point is to load the system with DMT and get as much of it past the blood-brain barrier, right?
3) Inhale through the nose or mouth? Honestly, inhaling through the mouth bugs me. I have a tendency to engage my swallow reflex, sometimes I feel like I'm taking the stuff into my stomach and not my lungs. And then there's the whole coughing thing. I mean, it's gotta get into your bloodstream fast and I know the lungs are the best way (at least when smoking) but do you think it would work as well or better if I rigged up a breather mask (like those first aid oxygen masks) with a tube to inhale the vapour from the Machine through my nose?
4) Someone to prime the Machine? Part of my difficulties I felt was the lag time between inhaling a load of vapour and the production of the next load of vapour... would it be wise to have someone there who can manage the lighter duties and keep the chamber of the Machine filled with vapour? It dissipates so quickly. My g/f was there for me, because I thought that I would break through and drop the equipment in my astonishment, but she was not clear on how to heat the Machine (I was only just learning myself, after all!) and besides which she told me afterwards that the Machine produced so much smoke that she actually became frightened of second-hand smoke effects! haha And considering how instantly high she saw me get in such a short period of time, I can't blame her really. But maybe this question pertains to the timing question.
One last odd thing: even though the Landotter has never smoked DMT before, in the initial moments of lighting the Machine and taking the first tentative hits, I got the deepest feeling of
deja vu I have ever experienced. It was like "oh right this again" and "of course! remember?"... a very weird and distinct feeling of fuzziness in my temporal perception. Pity I wasn't able to parlay that feeling into a successful breakthrough.
Well, I'm hoping to try again this weekend; there's still spice in the plug and I have the other half of my supply in reserve. Any advice or thoughts on the above questions will be greatly appreciated and gratefully received!
Namaste y'all!
the Landotter, wishing he could somehow take his DMT intravenously
ignotum per ignotius, obscurum per obscurious