I’ve been taking chaliponga more often recently. My favorite way of taking chaliponga is sublingually. I usually take 15 mg of alkaloid extract under the tongue. This is roughly 5mg of 5-MeO-DMT and the rest is mostly DMT. Keep in mind that the DMT is not very active sublingually at 10 mg so the effects are just from the 5-MeO-DMT.

At 15 mg, this dose is usually a mild dose with a little bit of visuals and a lot of mental effects. It’s very nice. Smooth, exciting, uplifting, and very euphoric.

Ok, so this time I took 15 mg in the cheek instead of under the tongue. I sat at my computer desk waiting for the effects to start. After 5 minutes it burns a little, not as much as under the tongue, but nothing is felt. After 10 minutes I hardly noticed anything except some euphoria and excitement so I went to bed thinking it wasn’t going to work well.

As I lay in bed I closed my eyes and quickly drifted into a mild visionary state. In the vision there were lots of people taking and things happening all around. But what was unusual was that I wasn’t there. I wasn’t anywhere. I wasn’t even a spectator. I simply didn’t exist. It was someone else’s dream I was in. I had no body. No memories, nothing. As I thought about this I popped back into reality and the visions vanished. I never experienced anything like that before. I closed my eyes again and then bam. I’m experiencing the same vision. The same people are talking. It’s the same place. I recognize nothing at all, it’s simply an ordinary place. The people are talking about mundane ordinary things. There was nothing to learn from the vision. It was just like I had gone to a friend’s house and was talking to a bunch of people about this and that, just a normal day, except I wasn’t there. I simply did not exist. The people couldn’t see me, here me or noticed me in any way at all. The things they talked about had nothing to do with me whatsoever.

Again I thought more about why I was missing from my vision and then suddenly the vision stopped again and I was back in reality laying in my bed wide awake.

Apparently the effects took longer to absorb this way. Instead of peaking after about 10-15 minutes, it peaked after about 20 minute. I still felt effects up until about 40 minutes later.

Today I’m wondering what the heck happened. I’ve never experienced anything like that before from any psychedelic. Even on high doses of LSD I’ve always been there a little bit, maybe without my ego, but I still fill that I’m there. That night during the visions, I wasn’t there at all. I had absolutely no sense of self at all. It was complete ego loss, except that I could still think. I could not feel myself. I could not see myself. The entire vision was rich with lots of content, lots of people, Lots of dialog, very vivid imagery. It looked complete real actually. It didn’t look like a dream or the typical vision. It looked real.

Somehow the effect of not being there was rather relaxing. It bothered me because I never experienced anything like that before and I didn’t know what to make of it. It was like my imagination was dreaming and forgot to include ME in the dream! It was very unusual.