Hello to everyone at the nexus!
I am new here, I've been a longtime lurker and decided to make the plunge and become a legitimate member here today. The forum and member's seem so civilised and I couldn't lurk for any longer and wanted to be a part of it
Now a little bit about myself...
I was lucky / unlucky enough to be born in the early 80's, the product of two great parent's who let me be me and grow up to be who I wanted to be, which happens to be a musician / guitar teacher. I had a great and happy childhood, my mum was a stay at home kinda mum and my dad grew and sold weed, which probably had a little to do with my interests later in life and meant I had my parents around for a lot of my youth. They both didn't drink and very rarely indulged in any other drugs ( though my mum did tell me about a great mushroom experience they had in there younger days ).
I started to experiment with weed in my mid teens, my parents were fairly tolerant of this, and because of this, I didn't abuse it too much ( where as friends of mine became regular chronics ). I value this time greatly as it came to influence my view on music and how I heard it. Around this time I also became immensely interested in psychedelics and altered states as well as out of body experiences, near death experiences etc. I experimented with mushrooms and LSD briefly around the age of 18 but nothing too heavy.
I first heard of DMT about 6 years ago, an older friend had mentioned to me his experience with it and the alien experience that entailed had me intrigued. Cut to around late 2007/ early 2008 and the spirit molecule had come into the public consciousness to a great degree. I finally got to experience DMT in the form of what was called "Dreamtime Blend", a changa like mix containing DMT, mullein and passionflower. I had a strong ( but sub-breakthrough ) experience, which was very beautiful and mind expanding. I tried it a few more times to a lesser degree a year or so later as well.
I might add too, around the time of 20, my dad passed away for natural reasons... At the time I didn't deal with it and it came back and bit me in a big way a few years later on a low dose acid trip, causing an outpouring of held in grief and brought up some anxiety and OCD issues in my life. I've always had an obsessive type of mind, whatever subject or activity I get into, I give it 100% attention with massive blinders on and the stress of grief crossed this over into my normal life. It took a few years to sort through this and bring it to a kind of closure, the biggest most dramatic chapter of my life so far... something I am infinitely thankful to have gone through and has made me such a better person.
Which brings me to now... I feel have come to a place where the spice can have a massive and positive influence in my life. A year or so ago I indulged in a little bit of DMT and feel it gave me a great perspective shift in the way I look at life and my own obsessions and neurosese, I'm in a much calmer place and feel ready to continue the journey with spice and experience the wonders of the breakthrough ( it is something I feel I would need to only do once a year at breakthrough doses ).
Sorry for the length of my story but I felt it needed telling. Peace and happy travelling and I look forward to contributing to this great community!
"The love I've made is the shape of my space"