Hey man, a journals a good idea bro! You might have inspired myself to do one too
Dont be afraid to share what you're experiencing on these forums bro, its filled with people who can understand and help you sort things out. Its really a hidden gem in the world of forums
In my experience, i have found that the answer to all of my problems is very simple, very ingenious, yet the duality of it is that it is one of the hardest thing to do sometimes. It seems that most of my problems, when traced back to their roots, all lead back to a problem of the mind.
The mind's purpose is to work things out in a logical way, so that can make sense of the world, which comes down to it is an evolutionary development with the purpose of keeping us alive.
After we undergo these intense experiences, our mind is scrambling to make sense of it all. This is a normal reaction for the mind. But the problem is that it is trying to make sense of something that does'nt make sense, or that does'nt need to make sense.
The cool thing is that once your aware of the mind and the obstructions that it causes on a daily basis, you can begin to recognize and catch it at work. With time, you can treat your mind, this is only the first step.
To treat the mind, you have to administer the antidote. Its the simple answer which i reffered to at the beggining of my post. The antidote is acceptance. If you can accept that you dont know anything, that you may not understand anything ever, and that it is all part of something much bigger than your human mind can even begin to logically interprate, then you can begin to just observe.
Acceptance really is the answer to any little or big problem that you will ever face in your life. Its so simple, but the mind is a tricky one... If you can master accepting anything that comes your way, than you can find complete and constant peace within yourself.
Anyway, thats how i deal with anything nowadays. I hope that i made sense and that maybe i helped you out, sorry its long winded. In summary:
Dont think, float downstream, observe, feel, be grateful for every blessing that you have, and just be like a sticky ball of love that rolls around and gets everything all goey!