Hello all! I am preparing to embark on my very first journey with Ayahuasca, which will also be my first experience with DMT.. And this is my question.
I know it is usually recommended to try smoking DMT first. However, what are your thoughts on Ayahuasca for a first time user? Though I could extract from my Mimosa, here is the reason I am feeling pulled towards Aya.
I am a recently clean heroin addict.. Well actually, I have over 3 months clean now, which for a 5 year IV heroin addict, is not recently at all! It's the longest stretch I've ever had.
I was granted this gift of freedom from addiction through my experiences with the Iboga plant. So my fears of my addiction returning are smaller than ever before, almost gone, but of course I remain on my toes.
Anyway.. The reason I'm leaning towards Aya is because it is only after my Iboga experiences that I feel so drawn to it. I've always been very curious in the past about trying DMT, and knew that I someday would, however I had planned on smoking it first.. In the past my intentions would have been for the fun/exploration of it first, and spiritual journey second. But as a newly addiction-freed soul, I am now in this more for the emotional/spiritual healing that can come about. And also, I have to watch myself and my intentions very carefully.. If my unconcious goal is really to have some fun and "get fucked up", then I'm sure it will not only be an unpleasant trip, but could have the potential to start me down a destructive path again.
So I'm very mindful of my intentions these days. Most of my cautiousness about this journey was actually brought to my attention by some friends I'm in contact with in a very small and tight-knit Iboga forum. I hadn't even thought too much about the potential of this to start me down a drug/thrill seeking path again. Thankfully that Iboga forum is full of incredibly caring people, and they have been kindly helping me in a similar discussion on that board.
But yes, anyway, my main question is.. What are your thoughts about a first timer taking his journey with Aya. And feel free to be as specific as you can about everything.. Intentions, dose, set, setting.. (I will be using yellow Caapi vine, and Mimosa bark)
I am only a baby in this world and am so very grateful for these forums to allow me to hear the insights and opinions of others. Thank you!
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