Hi all,
33 yo male, couple low doses of lsd in my 20's have been my only exposure to psychedelics. Had a friend give me a tiny tiny bit of DMT that he had left and i smoked it in a pipe and it just blew my hair back, i felt like I was shot out of a cannon but landed right back in my chair - I knew i needed to go further with this molecule, immediately.
I did alot of reading about DMT. Strassmans book, podcasts, scoured the net before finally getting my hands on 1 gram. Just wanted to write about my first few trips and where I tihnk i went wrong/right!
I put maybe 20mg in a pipe as soon as it arrived, I was rushing, it was after work, was not in the best mood and I had quite an uncomfortable physical and anxious experience. It tasted horrible,
LESSON - The glass pipe was not an efficient way to do this and set and setting is very important.
I packed the spice away and ordered a Yocan Orbit. When it finally arrived I did a handful of small 5-10mg doses learning to use the vape. I finally had a day off and dropped 50mgs in, got into bed put some music on and went for it. I was met with a rough physical come up, music lyrics were piercing my ears, the room left so quickly went into a complete cyclone of thoughts about my heart rate, my kids, where I was, finally managed to let go after a fight - I was met with a large face, spewing a waterfall of information and symbols - Whatever this stuff was pouring down on me, crushing me, I knew It was definitely suppose to be going inside of me - I was back, I barely remembered anything, I was out for 10 minutes and it took me another 20 minutes to collect myself.
LESSON - I did too much, the come up was so damn fast and I just couldn't remember anything! Gentle music is okay BUT NO LYRICS!
Now the third time. I wasn't planning on going anywhere, my cousin was coming over the next day to trip so i thought I would practice with the vape do a small dose. I was sitting in my office chair, flute music playing. I loaded 10mg, some physical build up really pleasant visuals, body was buzzing, ears ringing. Any anxiety I had melted away, I needed to do more, another 10mg same thing I wanted to keep this low dose feeling going, went 15mg this time and that was it I was gone with no fight, very little physical discomfort, I was in a well defined green and gold room with pyramids and there was just the one entity (much better defined than the 50mg dose) it was demanding my attention. I could tell it was female, it had a face but the body of a serpent, she was like an over excited puppy, a little aggressive right up in my face and the same information?Symbols? she was spewing into me. Into my eyes, my mouth, my nose, my ears she was filling me up with this stuff and it felt amazing. As I could feel I was leaving it was like she got more and more frantic to get it into me, she was very impatient and a little mad I didn't have more time.
LESSON - A "primer" dose makes the trip much more comfortable and the 35mg in steps was better than the 50mg I had done a few days ago. I can step it up with the vape, it seems to prime me, melt away any anxiety.
My cousin came over the next day, his first time, i was confident I could guide him through with the r&d I had been doing. He had an amazing trip, zero anxiety. I told him not to forget to smile as he left and he had a little smirk on his face the whole 6 minutes he was gone. I didn't really feel like doing it after doing it twice in the last 5 days, but I had 10mg and same thing felt primed, so put 15mg in straight after and off I went (25mg). My cousin said "dont forget to smile" and those words were repeating in my head as I left. My eyes closed and i was rollercoasting through a red sort of grid-lined tunnel, seemed like i was going past little statues and faces. Then I arrived and there was not 1 entity this time but many and they were dancing and smiling. I was spinning with them, it was like we were intertwinced and dancing, again they were putting this stuff inside of me but they were so happy and jovial that they kept spilling it on me, it felt so beautiful. As I was coming back they were getting clumsier and clumsier i felt drenched in this stuff, I heard myself giggle, I was back and felt dripping wet. WOW. This was the most fun of my experiences so far but was not quite as colourful or well defined as the 35mg the night before, this trip was more memorable because of the happy feeling and the dancing/moving not so much what I could see - " Dont forget to smile" Changed everything.
LESSON - The vibe I take in with me and the vibe of the people I am with, is the vibe of the entities. They react to my feelings, not I to theirs. They are getting me ready for something, the next level? I need to pay more attention. but I also need a break, while it was amazing, three trips in a week as a novice is confusing to integrate, writing helps.