Took some sublingual pharma over the weekend. I dosed about 40 mg Harmala + 37.5 mg DMT, a little less than my last trip (50 mg Harmala + 45 mg DMT), thinking I wanted to go just a little less deep. Turned out not quite enough, but I took some puffs off the vape cartridge to augment throughout the night.

I did the intended exploration/healing, journaled a bit, etc. then laid on the couch and thought a few more hits of the vape sounded nice. This was probably T+3:30 or 4:00, and I was basically at baseline. I wasn't sure if the Harmala was active enough at this point to make the cartridge a good choice, but it was there, and I went for it.

I started rising slowly and slowly. I kept toking until I was no longer there to toke.

There were no geometric patterns or rainbow swirls that I'm used to with smoked DMT. No hazy visuals or things half-seen. There was a clarity to the visual experience I'm not used to. The body euphoria was insane, too.

I went somewhere else, another galaxy, another universe maybe. I think I became someone/something else. The scene was beautiful, like a shimmering pond in the middle of a city filled with these pure white arch-like structures that were flexible and mobile and intelligent -- not at all what I think of when people talk about entities or even my own limited experience with them. I just sat with these (creatures?) and became one with the experience. It was transcendental and euphoric and motionless.

I think my eyes were slits, not open, but not fully closed, and eventually reality imposed on my vision, and there was a (not troubling) slow realization that I am Palmer Eldritch, like everything about "me" had dissolved so completely, coming back was mildly confusing. Like waking up from the Matrix. Or whatever the reverse of that analogy would be

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Palmer Eldritch

Another beautiful and great report.

The alien place sounds amazing.

I love DMT visuals but have always felt that a lot of the experience is about the feelings and that seems to come through in this report.