This sure is a long report. I enjoyed reading it.

Sorry for your husband, really sad to read about his state of being. I hope he will be fine as far as this is possible given the conditions.

You talk about microdosing. What does this bring you? I am not into microdosing. Better to take the real hit .

Mucrodosing has been show to help people manage certain mental health disorders such as anxiety depression, others use it to help with creativity and productivity, and others to help in getting off of other meds or drugs.

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Microdosing is helping keep my mood stable and upbeat no matter what comes my way, it is noticeably increasing my visual acuity and I hope it helping with cognitive repair because two bouts (I was and am vaccinated) of covid damaged more of my memory than 35 years of heavy cannabis use.

I work every day of the year. Even in this quiet period I have morning gigs so taking the real hit, though desirable is seldom realistic given my life and schedule. I got lucky yesterday and hope to do so again in early June.

Thanks for reading gents!

Now I can provide the answer that such a powerful and beautiful post deserves.

First, my deepest condolences for your trials. You know that I'm just a baby (34), so I can only imagine what your experience and life pressures can be like with everything going on in your unique situation. You also have my approbation for you're extreme magnitudes of strength, resilience, indefatigability, courage, wisdom... I could go on. I deeply hope the best for you.

Your trip overall hit home for me as a month or so ago I had a similar experience in eating 1g of Yetis... And I've also become much more sensitive to psychedelics, even at my age, so definitely have my curiosities about how much this may increase with time. And by similar, I mean in terms of unexpected intensity.

It was warming to read what you had to say about "dark," "gross," and/or "bad" imagery. Sometimes such imagery is just there, without a particular reason. Sometimes it symbolizes something for us to learn from. It may be uncomfortable, but after careful thought, we are the ones that have the final say it what some imagery my mean or symbolize. Thank you for sharing that.

I also appreciated your statements about still journeying, even in sets that may not be the most beneficial, condusive, or therapeutic. If I tried to always abide by that, I would never do psychedelics... but then, that's one of the reasons why I do psychedelics

Considering your intention in retrieving old DMT memories, were any of your visuals reminiscent of past DMT journeys, or were they novel to this particular experience?

This was a wonderful trip report. Thank you.

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You are very kind.

Nemo Amicus is at a University now and will be home tonight then returning tomorrow. He had his eye biopsied to see if it's cancer or an autoimmune disease called occular OCP.

I was wondering if it might be okay or at all appropriate (sorry - I am a bit on the spectrum) to have a SHE where we pray and meditate on Nemo Amicus keeping what vision he still has? If not I completely understand and to be honest the turn out at the memorial SHE left something to be desired.

On another note, if I die suddenly and you find out I would hope you VoidMatrix would MC a SHE to see me off.

You asked about similar or retrieved DMT trip imagery. Certainly the party yurt seemed like a variation on a theme in various rooms and waiting rooms on DMT. The spinning strip marquis of alien language are something I always see in hyperspace and this was the first time they appeared on a mushroom trip.

The entities. Wow. Previously I had only met mushroom entities on my 7 gram liberty cap trip and ironically with eyes open - cats were ascending and appearing out of the floor.

But this trip had a bunch of female entities, which was interesting because my DMT entities were mostly male or non gendered iirc in the past.

These mushroom entities, other than the skeletons, were completely autonomous, disregarding or unaware of my presence/observations. When I meet entities on DMT they are seldom chill. Usually they crowd and rush me in a pushy way, get all up in my hyperface and compete to show me stuff.

The skeletons who were screaming then dancing reminded me of the hyperspatial Thalia and Melpomene masks I saw on my last DMT trip. It started frowny but my attitude caused it to turn into a smile. Seems like the skeletons exhibited a similar kind of attitude.

My ego wants to go wild and interpret this trip as symbolic of all the death and "bloody" business I have had to deal with with while living in the big city with the garden Goddess being myself trying to hold it all together. But somehow that does not feel right, there is no authentic resonance.

I think I will hold off on further attempts at interpretation until some more time passes.

Yes, i agree with void. It's a wonderful report.

I sometimes get "gross" images as well.
It's probably an accurate reflection of the human experience, wich sometimes just happens to be gross and gory.

I'm also sorry to hear about all of your struggles. It says a lot about you that you still manage to have this positive outlook. And also that amidst all of those things you still have the guts to "open the soul" with mushrooms.

I think this is a very beautiful idea and I would definitely be a in attendance. Did you have a time frame in mind? I can also help organize if you need. Would love to help and facilitate sending healing and gracious energy in anyway that I can

While I deeply and sincerely hope that this does not happen in the forseeable future, I am honored that you would like me to take such a role and I will gladly, humbly, and devotedly take such a mantle. In the short time that we have been interacting, I find you to be a phenomenal individual, and by honoring you in such a way, I am blessed to be able to have a part of you with me always.



How did you feel having more feminine energy around in that form? I know I personally have a bias towards women and the feminine and I think that's why a great many entities that I have come across have been portrayed as female. I also experience entities that are gender fluid or without gender at all.



How does it make you feel when entities are indifferent to your presence? I know for me, depending on my mood because I am very very introverted at times, it's a relief when they just let me be. I think they can tell before I get into the space whether I am open to interacting or not. However, in my guidework, I tend to have many journeyers that describe similar behaviors of entities, crowding and encroaching on people while they are in the space. Personally, I've found that when this is the case there is something to be gleaned from that kind of chaotic interaction that can be of great value.



The ageless act of integrating through interpretations Do you ever find that there are times where the content may not have any explicit meaning? Do you also find that there are times that the meaning and symbolism is polyvalent, sometimes with antimonies? As always, you show great temperance in these matters and affairs, knowing when to try to make sense of it and then also knowing when to just let it be for a time. Something very admirable.

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Thank you so very much.

I was thinking that to enable as many folks from the East and West coast of the Americas and some Europeans (at a minimum in terms of geography) to be able to attend as well as fit in with my hectic busy schedule that maybe Saturday, May 20th at 2 p.m. might work . . . for the SHE for Nemo Amicus.

Regarding the novelty of female entities: The entire experience had an excessively positive vibe about it so meeting these females was pleasureful. I delighted in seeing them.

Regarding indifferent/chill entities: I really love them. I am used to the pushy ones. I like being able to observe them or just mellowly interact. Don't get me wrong, DMT entities have been very benign and have attempted to help and heal me more than once. They have put me into fantastic and fun/pleasurable machines and shown me amazing things and vistas. But it is really nice to encounter disinterested or chill ones.

For sure I have had trips that really don't integrate into a deeper meaning - just kind of a huh, or weird or LOL reaction to material that didn't glean further analysis. I do suspect this current experience is heading in that direction. It's all part of the overall good as far as I can tell.

I hope many will join us

I wonder how common such an experience really is (something we may never know). I have been in contact with a handful of questionable and nefarious harmful entities, but they tend to also just let me be.

This conversation is reminding me of many journeys I had not thought about in a while

Apologies if it seemed like I was insinuating that your experience was lacking content. My question was kind of a non-sequitir out of my own curiosity relative to my subjective experience. It's come to a point where I will have experiences where there isn't much that's novel to learn and glean aside from experiencing the novelty of that particular journey. No insights received, no insights formulated. I have had some pretty interesting ones that land in this category and I'm very thankful for them. They also tend to be some of the more wild ones that I can't begin to describe.



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Glad I took the time to read this all, I quite enjoyed it

Life circumstance is dreadful, and unpredictable. We can only do so much. I too have had that sort of gore visions before as well. Especially the creepy demon bug things where I get an up close look at their faces. Very odd to say the least. The space we enter when taking DMT or mushrooms is a vast space where I seem to keep finding new things hiding around the corner. Its far from a bag of tricks and seems to move and grow as I do. I always thought during my younger trips I'd see everything that the space has to offer. Couldn't be more wrong at the time. I hope everyone can achieve what they need in this life.