First of all, special thanks to this wonderful community and all of the great threads. Nexus has been a wonderful source as I began my journey to experience DMT and other entheogens.
I am hoping that some of you can help me interpret my last few journeys as they were extremely strange, or at least see if anyone has experienced something similar. I will start by saying that I have had at least a hundred extremely profound and somewhat spiritual journeys with a few strange ones mixed in over the past year. My last three breakthroughs were super odd and unlike anything else so far. I will try to keep it short and sweet, but can elaborate if asked.
First: I have a "guide"/entity who is unmistakeably with me on most journeys (I see her or intuitively know of her presence nearly always during trips). This first strange journey started off as a typical breakthrough to another realm. During the time as I was coming down and becoming aware of my body she revealed herself to me and we were staring into each others eyes intensely. Her eyes burned a bright white then flared brighter and my attention was immediately focused on my toungue. My perception was that my tongue shriveled into a tiny worm and began thrashing about my mouth, with my mouth feeling like a massive cavern. It was so bizarre, and the first time an entity has interacted with me in a way that was physically perceptable.
Second: After a day or two of processing this, I decided to take another journey and face my newfound anxiety. This one was significantly more bizaar. I was faced with a new entity who telepathically communicated to me that "she" (I interpretted this "she" as my original "guide" entity I mentioned before) wanted her to show me something. She then embraced my being. I felt an immense physical pressure surrounding my body and a feeling like someone embracing my entire head with pressure (especially around center of forehead and temples). She then touched my lips and immediately my mouth became a cavern and tongue a "worm". Then I felt something slip from her fingers into my mouth, like a spider which then crawled down my throat encircling my esophagus as it travelled downward. If this sounds bizarre, it was infinitely more bizarre to experience. I came to rather quickly but the scratchy sensation in my throat remained for quite some time.
Third: Today (three days after the second journey mentioned above) I was determined to get past this hurdle. I meditated into a peaceful state of mind and took my hit. During this breakthrough, again the strange tongue thing happened and my mouth was a cavern. This time it was incredibly uncomfortable so I immediately opened my eyes and started breathing excercises to relax. I could almost see, but could definitely perceive that there ws a being of pure energy above me in the room. Then I felt a pulling sensation in my gut. A tentacle-like energy wriggled up from my gut until what felt like a serpent was writhing around from my stomach to the back of my throat. The energy entity was pulling on this serpent (my perception was that it was trying to remove it from me). It was extremely uncomfortable and I am not sure whether the interaction was malevolent or benevolent. As I write this, I still have a slight discomfort in my throat.
I am having difficulty processing these experiences. Any guidance or advice would be helpful.
Much love!