I fully understand and if there were anything to forgive you for I would offer my forgiveness up on a platter to you my friend.

I really don't think Jacky and the Traveler are the same person but it's amazing to me how greatly the websites they each created have effected my my life. I have so much respect for both of them. Really I don't know The Trav all that well but I do know Jacky pretty well...as well as one can without actually meeting a person. They are pioneers and visionaries in my opinion and because of that I look at them as almost one entity.

Oh and it wasnt' until class wars, racism, oppression and really just ignorance or worse willful ignorance on the part of the powers that be throughout history that the negative side effects of the opium poppy were realized (and many others tools of slavery). Now it's just much clearer but really it was the same back in the beginning asa it is now. That which is above is also below etc etc...
Then you get into the distillation of alcohol and isolation of morphine hundereds of years later and well...we need an archaic revival as so many much smarter people than I have said for a long time now.
The heathens in the jungle had it right all along.

It seems the only benefit to being a white man is that if time travel is invented and a reality someday we are really the only ones who can go into the past at just about any point and get a table at the nicest restaraunt without a problem. Minorities, blacks in preticular probably wouldn't really wanna go any further back than the 70's or 80's.
That's a Loius C.K. bit. It's not mine. Funny none the less and maybe has something to do with what I was just talking about. I don't know. It's all so god damned overwhelming sometimes....the hurt...the suffering...so many people for so god damn long....what is wrong with us? Better question. Will we ever change our ways?

As you see, this thread has evolved to something nice, contrary to your predictions.

Is there any chance that what I experienced was only because of endogenous DMT? I know no one can say yes for sure but maybe no and if neither than that is really interesting. That to me would help to prove Stassman's theories that the Pineal can produce and release large enough amounts to have a psychoactive effect.
Of course there was no control and my one night certainly wasn't following the scientific method in any way shape or form but interesting to think about.

But why would heroin cause a release of endogenous DMT?

I think bufoman's explanation is the most logical one: Your mind was sedated and started to wonder inwards, creating a sort of very powerfull daydream of wich the content was being determined by your previous experience that day.

I've never done Heroin, but I have a lot of experience with poppy tea. I used to seriously TRAVEL after drinking poppy tea. I would watch people ALL NIGHT. Strange conversations, scenarios, listening and watching vividly.
It was fascinating, but the itch, constipation, and vasoconstriction was just so icky.
I'm glad to have experienced that, but there are much better things to work with nowadays...like spice...

Well funny you ask because that's what I have been looking into and I'm thinking that maybe the bags I got had a higher than normal level of Noscapine or Narcopine in them. Some bags have none some upwards of 8% but maybe these bags had much higher levels enough to produce CEV's that others weren't noticing because they weren't paying attention or wouldn't recognize it as such.
Who knows there could have been upwards of 35 or so different alkaloids from that opium crop that maybe slipped though during production that had alkaloids competing for all sorts of different synaptic bonding sites.
Maybe DMT had nothing to do with it.

Holy shit.....5...almost 6 years later....

So....I dropped in for other reasons and found this old gem. Rereading was nice....and made me cringe at myself and some of the ridiculous things I said.

A lot of people in the thread talked of DMT and what it could possibly teach me...how it could help me with opiates. Well here's a happy ending for you I suppose....

In hindsight I think it [dmt] was instrumental in my now being two years opiate free. Suboxone also helped a great deal in its way but I don't think maintenance with it alone would have done the trick. The psychedelics of various sorts used very sparcely while maintaining strictly on suboxone and no other opiates over 3 years eventually led me to decide three-ish years ago that it was time to kick the Suboxone as well. And so I did. With a shockingly non-existent desire to use any opiates during the worst of the withdrawal and in the two years that have followed.

Only drugs ingested in those two years have been marijuana (1/4 ounce over two years maybe) which I find I don't have the taste for anymore, and a few glasses of wine. And during the worst of my withdrawals (day11 if my notes are accurate) I took 125mg of mdma as a bit of a science experiment which was both fantastic and just the relief I needed but also quite horrible in the end...coming down into withdrawals was not pleasant at all. The brief 4 hour withdrawal free window was reinvigorating to my spirit though.

Lastly...I moved with two friends (as opiate naive as they come) to Los Angeles three weeks ago and god I love it here so much. Planning to visit some elves on some beach at some point while the sun sets.

Cheers

Congrats.

I'll be interested to read this thread, as it's before my time.

Like to see people be successful with freeing themselves from opiates. Subs sent me to the hospital every time I tried them, my route involved methadone. Not fun.

Be good to you, man!

1. This suggestion is very possible.
2. Quit Heroin.
3. Good luck.