Wow dude you have just laid out a gold-mine! I very much like the idea of thinking about the thought-pattern as a personality. I think this is probably poetically close to the real situation: we are an amalgam of semi-sentient algorithms with an executive unit that is somewhat more aware of these sub-processes than they are of each other; although clearly it isn't necessarily aware of all or even most of them. It makes the final executive decisions but its choices are almost always based on the inertia of the semi- or pre-sentient algorithms and their desire to continue existing in the framework of the "individual" (now of course individual must be written with ironical quotation marks). These patterns or "thoughtforms" as you called them work best or get what they "want" when they let the executive portion believe that IT came up with the idea, this is how they go without being discovered - they make you think you made the choice. Which ultimately you did I suppose, or gave it the rubberstamp of approval, but the impetus came from the thoughtform.
This is my conception of the "self", or perhaps that is descriptive of the "ego" - and where ego is conflated with egotism is the point that this executive really thinks that it's "In Charge", for then it cannot question the impetus for its action.
today is day three with no tobacco, although I did hit that e-cig twice. Oh well I'm doing better. besides the usual triggers like coffee, kratom, cars, and writing on the computer (gah I used to smoke tons of cigarettes and get on the nexus!), I have noticed something that probably many people in relationships that use tobacco have: the irritable tendency which leads to bickering which leads to WANTING TO SMOKE LIEK SO BAD! So if you smoke and are in a relationship, don't let that even start which is really hard to do especially if you are both quitting simultaneously . But I almost feel like it is a trick from my addiction- it gets me irritable and that makes me be kindof a dick, which leads to a fight, which makes me want to smoke; but it was an elaborate plan! It's causing the issue and then right at the opportune moment is like "Hey, remember me? Your old pal? This wouldn't have happened if you just had a cigarette... c'mon, smoke you'll feel loads better!"
Anyway, thanks again and I'll let you know how it goes...
PS, has anyone tried microdosing or just dosing harmala/caapi to quit? Like instead of nicotine-replacement therapy, harmala replacement therapy?
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"whenever he drank ayahuasca, he had such beautiful visions that he used to put his hands over his eyes for fear somebody might steal them."
in between the grinding-brakes of a train crash while aluminum-foil robots make obnoxious sex noises on a static-filled walkie-talkie radio.