Thanks for the input everyone. I chose not to work with aya quite yet. I used kratom to help ease me off the methadone with success. I'm now learning balance and choosing peace over chaos and fear. Not ready to dive right back into entheogens but after I build a solid foundation, I may be ready soon.

I can't say enough about the power of a healthy diet, exercise, meditation, and plenty of good quality sleep for a balanced mind, body, and spirit.