This will be different.

I had this neighbor for about 8 years, he was very 'tuned-in', did psychedlics and the like, studied Eastern philosophy and the sort. He died about 6 months ago sitting in his chair at his computer, he was older, not too old though, like in his 60s, heart failure. We always had a connection being interested in the same stuff, psychology, philosophy, and the like.
I had an idea, I wondered if I could contact him, or at least felt what he felt if I did D in the same spot, the same chair and the same spot of which he died. Maybe it would be an extra-special portal or something.
So I loaded up a respectable dose. Sat in the same spot, meditated and the like, lit it, hit it hard….not that much happened. I was confused, I loaded up more, hit it, not that much again. I started to wonder if what I was doing was wrong or forbidden, like Dr. Frankenstein, and so was being denied access. I have been denied access before, probably for good reasons at the time.
95% of the time I blast off and break through whether I like it or not
Anyway, so I loaded it AGAIN, hit it, not too much…
I began to melt into the chair, imagined taking last breaths, was immobile, felt peace and stillness maybe like a person who just died might feel….was kind of disappointed,
But when I rubbed my eyes, I saw, closed eyed, a massive spirit hovering overhead of me, trying to get through to me, this spirit was in the shape of a human form, made up of stars. He put his face to mine, and was trying to communicate, but the veil was still there, the membrane had not been punctured. But I could still see him and he could still see me, we were observing each other, but just could not communicate. I think it is just because in was not loaded enough, though I tried hard by loading it 3 times.
I will try again another time, maybe I can break through to the other side next time and actually talk to him, but it was still strange that I searched for him and we found each other. Also strange that I was being denied full access to that particular experience. Maybe my brain put the brakes on.

Doing D in the same place and spot where someone died. Crazy!

You have more guts than me! DMT freaks me out enough! I'd like to hear more, if you attempt this again.

Very interesting. It could be that you may need to try it a few more times before your mind accepts the idea enough to open up to the experience.

This is unbelievable... so surreal and... I'm at a loss for words after reading this. Thank you for sharing.

I am yet to have a breakthrough experience; judging by your post I would assume you have had several.
I admire that.

Thanks again,

This is incredibly interesting. Please, tell us more if you are able to breakthrough next time.

I will try to try again tomorrow and let you guys know .....

Can't do it again today, I will have to wait until monday, boo,...I will respond.

OH YEAH, I almost forgot, I found out that the day that I tried this, was either the anniversary of the day he died, or very close to that day, I will find out more...

This is interesting, and i want to hear your conclusions, however,i wonder to what extent you are'biasing'your self.
I have incredibly powerful spiritual experiences every time i smoalk , but i give my spice to folks who do just as much as i, of not more, and just get"f'ed up".
But i study esotericism, so does that bias me, or are we preparing the vessel, so to speak.
Happy trails brother.

I am a skeptic, I am mostly sure I am 'intending', but you never know, I'll see what happens, it may convince me, it may not, it hasn't, not really, so far. I will have to keep trying and see. I will report. It does give me hope though. I am excited and feel good about it.

im sorry to hear that, but it sounds like he had a good life and died healthy, I could think of no better way.

you may just find a sense of closure in your quest, imo in the long term that would be more beneficial.

Great report!... is not a strange thought... that we can communicate with death people in that state of consiousness. Shamans in the amazon comunicate with dead people quit frequently..

wow!! I find this crazy. so cool. Keep us posted forsure

Great post -- I look forward to your follow-up

It seems as though his wife also wants to try it, she expresses interest, she has never heard of DMT, but has done shrooms and the like. I think that is what she needs for her closure, mine has already been done. Found a new, very powerful and effective use for DMT, closure.

I will post Tues or Wed at the latest on my next attempt. A HUGE dose with the GVG in the same spot and lighting and all that he died in....

I usually stay away from stuff like this, but since we're about 10,000 miles from home already...

If you try this again and you have an audio recorder of some kind, you may find it beneficial to start it rolling before you prepare, and just forget about it until after you're down, said your goodbyes and are packing up. I'm not saying there will be anything special on it, but it's helpful to some, sometimes.

When it comes to spirits close to the heart in life, I've found that it's often helpful to, in the moments preceding, "meditate" on the love still felt for them, the sound of their laugh, memories that are deeply meaningful, their smell, the twinkle in their eyes, everything.
Should there come a time when it seems like there's something you can do, just do it with all your heart, no matter how ridiculous. There's not much that doesn't bend to the whim of love.

All that being said, Solstices never hurt.

Wow! Im speechless and moved. Thank you for sharing this with us. You are very brave and your heart comes through in your words.

One thong that came to mind instantly after reading this is this. I don't feel you may need to load up more, I feel the blockage from making contact could be coming from your subconscious hesitation, if you will. Im finding it hard to find the right words here. Maybe its these slight doubts you had, like is this wrong, disrespectful ext obstructing you from communing with your friend. Maybe its not the dose but your mind set.

I agree with the advice you have gotten. Don't rush this, maybe even meditate in the room without dmt a few times. Become completely comfortable and open to the space. Smudge the room with palo santos and just infuse with the energies present.

I do feel the place we go is a portal to other realms and dimensions. Im very curious to see how your future journeys go. Thanks again for sharing your story.

Sorry to disappoint for now, I will be waiting. I am back in his house, but the time just doesn't seem right. I will take the advice and meditate more on his likeness, his smiles, his life and so on before I am ready for at least a couple of days. Basically, it feels right now as though I would be forcing it, and that may lead to undesirable results, if any worthwhile. Everything needs to be near perfect, especially for this. I usually don't wait for the perfect moment, many times I do it anyway and am happy that I did, but for this I really want it to work correctly. The first time I tried was the beginning of last week, then I did some more last Friday, so that might have something to do with it too, my brain feels best when only doing it once a week lately, I used to do it a couple of times of week, high doses, but I simply do not need as much anymore. This opportunity is just too great, it must be right this time – possibly a portal to where one entered the afterlife.

Something else interesting to note is that his ashes are in an urn close by, I could mix some with the spice, just joking.

I will post a new post when the time happens if it is worth it, so that way you guys do not have to keep coming back to check this post.

Maybe tomorrow, maybe by the end of the week, for sure I would think by next week, Mon or Tues, but I have to say that I really hate premeditated blast-offs, ones planned days or for sure a week or two ahead of time. It is much better when I just feel the time is right, the time is now, hurry and grab the GVG and go. If I don't feel that, then I might resist, which is the worst thing one can possibly do.

Anyway, it will happen. And I will let you guys know my friends.

Peace.

i was going to post this earlier, but didn't
but when you said ashes in an urn i just had to.

Just a thought... being a skeptic may be the very reason for the denial of full connection?

Being a skeptic myself has rarely served me and I often envy those who find belief and faith easy. I could have GOD materialize next to me and show me dozens of miracles and wonder if it was just a far more evolved entity having a good laugh at my expense Or maybe it was just me in a more open minded state of being? The deeper down the rabbit hole I go the less I know and the more I question everything even what seems 'real'.

edit: I wanted to add, I admire what you are trying to do. We all find connections in life we would like to further explore past the veil of death.

Looks like next week before I will be able to do it. No rush, my GVG fell off a shelf and shattered into a million pieces, so I may be forced, because of time sake, to resort to the ol' aluminum foil water bottle technique from back in the day...works,just not as efficient and tastes nasty. Anyway, I still think about it every day and am preparing. "Break on through to the other side"......

I wish that could be made into a bronze plaque. I resonate with this 1000%.